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ख्वाब ले कर सोने की आदत, तुमने कभी लगाई थी, पूरी करना हर अपनी चाहत, तुमने ही तो सिखाई थी, अब क्यूँ ख्वाबों में ही, तुमसे मुलाक़ात होती है, सच सी लगती है वो दुनिया, और हर हक़ीक़त झूठी लगती है, क्यूँ दूर गये तुम इतना, की छू भी ना पायें अब हम तुम्हे, बस राह ताकते हैं अब तो, की ख्वाब में ही सही तुमसे मिल सकें. Miss you Abhi 22.12.16

बड़ा बे - ख़ौफ़ है दर्द यह, बिन दस्तक आ जाया करता है, अश्क़ोन के लिबास ओढ़ यह, दिन रात जगाया करता है. ऐसे में जब ज़रा सी खुशी, परछाई में भी ढुँधलाती है, रुक जाती हैं साँसें अब, जब ज़िंदगी यह मुस्कुराती है. आदतें तन्हाइयों की अब, किसी के साथ की मोहताज नहीं, जब आती हैं लिए कोई वादा, तो दिल कहता है आज नहीं. खामोशी की लौ मोम से छू कर ज़रा लड़खड़ाती है, जब कोई हाथ पकड़ता है तो साथ छ्छूटने का डर बढ़ाती है, गुज़रा हुआ वक़्त जो अब तक बीता नहीं, उसमें तममे हुए टूटे वादों की याद दिलाती है. अब तुम हो ज़िंदगी में तो नींद आने से घबराती है, यह हक़ीक़त बदल ना जाए कल इश्स दर्र में रात बिताती है, नींद आ जाए तो फिर ख्वाब देखने से भी घबराती है, यह ख्वाब ना टूट जाए इश्स दर्र में कहाँ नींद आती है.

आज फिर सवा नौ के अलार्म के बिना भी, नींद खुल गयी. चलो कम से कम परसों की तरह आधी नींद में तुम्हे जगाने को फोन नहीं किया. फिर कमरे से निकलते हुए दो चम्मच साथ ले जा रही थी, फिर खुद पर हंस कर एक वापस रख दिया. मेस में जा कर देखा तो छोले - कुलचे बने थे, फिर दो की जगह चार उठा कर, अंदर जा कर, मक्खन से सेंक ही रही थी, की याद आया की अब तुम नहीं हो, क्या कहूँ, आदतें हैं, लगने में वक़्त नहीं लगा, पर अब जाते जाते जाएँगी. नाश्ते के वक़्त तुम अंडा चील दिया करते थे, और फिर मेरे आँख बाँध कर के दूध पीने पर गिनती करते थे, मेरी प्लेट उठा कर रखते, और ब्रेड को सेंक लाया करते थे. आज कल मैं खुद ही सब कर लेती हूँ. फिर पूरा दिन बेवजह छोटी छोटी बातें जो आदतें बन गयी हैं, सताती हैं, हसाती हैं और रूलाती भी हैं. दोपहर का खाना आजकल मैं नहीं खाती, वो आचार की शीशी तुम्हारे कमरे में ही रह गयी है, उसके बिना खाने में स्वाद ही नहीं आता. फिर भी कभी कभी मेस चली जाती हूँ. खाना बनाने वाले अक्सर तुम्हारा ज़िक्र किया करते थे, आजकल पूछते नहीं, शायद मेरी हँसी के पीछे छुपी मायूसी, अब छुप नहीं पाती. शाम की चाय अब अकेले ब...

एक प्यारे दोस्त ने कहा इतना अच्छा लिखती हो तुम, तो कम से कम आज के लिए कुछ लिखना तो बनता है, तो आज सोचा की यादों के बक्से के कुछ क़िस्सों को धूप दिखा दूं, अपनी बहन की शादी पर उनकी उनके गुज़रे बचपन से फिर मुलाक़ात करा दूं, फिर सोचा कहाँ से शुरू करूँ, क्यूंकी यह सफ़र जितना उनका है, उतना मेरा भी है, और यादों के इस बक्से का एक ही पता है - हम! घर के बड़े-बुज़ुर्ग बताते हैं, और कुछ तस्वीरें भी गवाह हैं, की हम पहली मुलाक़ात से ही, एक दूसरे के ख़यालों को ज़ुबान दिया करते थे, सब जब एक साथ बैठ कर अंताक्षरी खेलते थे, हम घर के किसी कोने में साथ बैठ कर ख्वाब बाँट-ते थे. बचपन से ले कर अब तक का वक़्त इतना खूबसूरत और यादगार रहा है, की समझ नहीं आता कौन से किससे की बात पहले करूँ? गर्मियों की छुट्टियाँ और मिट्टी के घर, नानी से सुनी वो कहानियाँ, और मेरठ वाले घर की छत, बे-उम्र बातें और लंबी रातें, सब लोगों की यही चिंता, कि कितना वक़्त काफ़ी होगा, इन दोनो के लिए, शायद, ज़िंदगी भी कम पड़ेगी. दी, आपसे मिल कर बचपन से अभी तक बस एक ही बात को, बार बार मैने समझा है, कि हम दोनो का संयोग ...

क्या तुम भी मेरी तरह यह बातें सोचते हो, कैसे होंगे वो दिन और रातें सोचते हो, जब वक़्त की कोई पाबंदी ना होगी, मुलाक़ातों की उमरें लंबी होंगी, जब हर ख़याल लिख के बताना ना पड़ेगा, और दूरियों से प्यार जताना ना पड़ेगा. क्या तुम भी मेरी तरह यह बातें सोचते हो, कैसे होंगे वो दिन और रातें सोचते हो, जब हम हर वक़्त का खाना साथ खाएँगे, और बिन सोचे बस कहीं भी निकल जाएँगे, जब साथ बैठ कर घंटों यह चाँद टाकेंगे, और फिर पहले की बातों पर पहली बार सा हँसेंगे. यह बातें सोचते सोचते एक एक दिन मैं गुज़ार रही हूँ, तुमसे मिलने का हर वक़्त मैं इंतेज़ार कर रही हूँ, देखो आज एक और दिन कम हो गया, हमारी मुलाक़ात का वक़्त करीब आ गया, यही सोच कर मुस्कुरा रही हूँ मैं मीलों दूर तुमसे, यही सोच कर फिर ख्वाब बुन रही हूँ जोड़ के तुमसे.

अजनबी हो गये हम कब, यह दूरियाँ कब आ गयीं, यूँ सामने से गुज़र गये, जैसे हम को जानते ही नहीं, जला दी तस्वीरें खत सभी, हटा दिए कमरे से अपने तोहफे मेरे, सोचा होता बस एक बार ही सही, उनमें शामिल थे जज़्बात कितने मेरे, आज फिर तुम्हे देख राह बदल ली, खुद पर हँसे भी और ताज्जुब भी हुआ, बदल गया वक़्त और सब चीज़ें इतनी, की अब लगता है सब एक ख्वाब ही था. Medhavi

है लम्हा क़ैद एक ख़यालों में, जो हर रोज़ जवान हो उठता है, कभी नींद में सताता है, कभी बेवजह हँसाता है, गुज़र गया है वो लेकिन, क्यूँ अब भी जमा हुआ सा है. कुछ खुश्बुएं क्यूँ अब भी, चू जाती हैं बिन बात के, आस पास देखती हूँ मैं, और हँसती हूँ खुद अपने आप पे. क्यूँ आँखें मूंद कर अब भी महसूस होता है आस पास, छ्छू जाता है बेवजह क्यूँ तेरी उंगलियों का वो एहसास, तस्वीर सी जैसे यूयेसेस लम्हे की, मेरे ज़हेन में उतरती रहती है. भूलना भी ना चाहूं मैं, नशे से मुझको चढ़ती है, देख रही हूँ फिर ख्वाब सा, उस गुज़रे लम्हे का, सोच रही हूँ सही अल्फ़ाज़, तुमसे यह सब कहने का, कैसे कहूँ कैसे हो तुम, कैसे कहूँ यह बातें तुम्हे, कैसे रखूं यह सब दिल में, अभी वक़्त है मिलने में तुमसे.

A PAINFUL DREAM... Today morning i woke up with a smile, Touched the bed beside myself to hold ur hand once again, but u weren't there with me, i was all alone, I looked around so that i could find a little glimpse of u, but u weren't there,i looked everywhere and couldnt find a clue... The dream was beautiful though u weren't actually with me, I appeased myself and tried to break the illusion that ur dream made, I wish i could remain asleep forever and live my life in ur arms, keep looking in ur deep eyes and never take my eyes off... The reality is bitter though u never loved me the way i did, U took me just as a friend and never saw what my eyes said, u smiled at me and i smiled back but you never noticed how pensive i was, for me u were always a cynosure, a beautiful gift by the almighty to me... No, i won't call it a love story coz it was one sided, a million times for which my heart chided, the feelings of the heart ar...

He still wanted to share the paradise. The paradise she built for them both. But the difference was her absence. The difference was her replacement. He wanted to still share the same friends... Friends, she built throughout her life. Friends, he met through her and felt alive... He wanted to pretend all's well. He wanted to envelope reality. She was living a nightmare. She wanted to still face it and build her identity... He continued his games and smiled at her. Sarcasm was it ? some mirage or myth. She smiled back and welcomed his hopes. She got up again and lived like never before. Medhavi

आपको देखते हैं तो सोचते हैं, वो कौन सी नज़्म होगी, जिससे हम आपको बयान कर सकेंगे, वो कुदरत की कौन सी मिट्टी होगी, जिससे फिर आप बन सकेंगे, वो कौन सी हवा का झोंका होगा, जो आपको छू कर ना महेकेगा, वो कौन सी रात का समा होगा, जो देख के आपको ना फिर सहेर होगा, वो कौन सा फूल होगा, जो आपकी एक मुस्कान से बच के मुरझा सकेगा. आपको पाने की चाहत नहीं, दूर से देखने की तमन्ना है, ना है कोई सवाल, ना हमें कभी आपका बनना है, बस एक फ़ासले पर रह कर, दुआएँ माँगनी हैं, आपकी खामोशियों से आपके दिल तक पहुँचना है. यह मोहब्बत है या इबादत, अंतर कर पाना मुश्किल है, अब भी बेकरार होता है आपको देख, यह मेरा दिल है, बरसों गुज़र गए मगर, आज भी आपसे मिलने से घबराता है, यह दिल ज़रा ज़ोर से धड़कने से कतराता है. आप ना हासिल हों हमें कोई शिकवा नहीं, ऐसी कुछ चीज़ें तो हैं जो आपको छू कर गुज़रती हैं, यह हवा, यह मौसम, यह बरसात की बूँदें, यह धूप, यह धूल, यह फ़ुर्सत के लम्हे. हर पंछी जो आप पर छाए आकाश में उड़ कर ही आज़ाद होता है, हर मौसम जो आपको सताने से पहले सौ बार सोचता है, हर आँसू जो आपकी आँखों का गैरों क...

वक़्त गुज़रता ना था पहले, अब देखो मेरी सुनता नहीं, गुज़र जाता है बिन इशारा किए. तेरे साथ चलते चलते ना जाने क्यूँ, सफ़र यह लगता है हसीन मुझको मंज़िल से भी. बैठ कर यूँ ही रास्ते में कहीं, करते रहे बचकानी बातें हम यूँ, जैसे गुज़रा ही नहीं हम पर बुरा ज़रा भी ना जाने कब भुला बैठे हर दर्द हँसी हँसी में हम. सितारे ना थे आसमान में आज रात, फिर भी चाँदनी में थी जाने क्या बात, नज़दीक आ रहे थे हम या यह भी साज़िश तही कोई, की जड गया यूँ ही अनकहा सा यह एहसास. कुछ था नशा हवाओं में भी, और कुछ तहा शायद तेरे साथ का असर, चलते चलते अजनबी राहों पे हम, भूल बैठे थे हम की जाना है घर. अब आ गये हैं हम कुछ हक़ीक़त के करीब, फिर भी तेरी दी मुस्कुराहटें हैं साथ ही, ख्वाब जो देखने की हैसियत इस तक़दीर की नहीं, दे रही हैं वही ख्वाब तेरी कही अनकही बातें अब. जागना भी नहीं और नींद आती नहीं, सताती भी है और चैन भी देती है अब, कहते हैं क्या इसको ही मोहब्बत, देखो ज़रा हम को भी यह हो गयी है क्या.

Her footwear were outside his room, She saw it and something broke inside, It wasn't her heart, it was a mirage, Filled with fake moments, some kind of collage... She smiled and laughed at herself again, But that couldn't mattify her deep pain, The eyes screamed, the hands shivered, The dreams shattered, the lips got dried, There were no tears, there was no anger, But disappointment and more disappointment... Medhavi

He still wears the shirt she gifted him. But the dates have a different woman. He tries to forget her before he sleeps. But she follows him in his dreams. He erased her name from his phone. But wrote it again on a paper when he was alone. The other woman is prettier maybe. But for him beauty will be forever she. He still listens to her favorite songs. And feels her beside himself all along. He doesn't admit. He doesn't believe. He's still in love with her but cannot see. Medhavi

He couldn't sleep. Neither could she. His eyes were open. But He couldn't see. Same city. Different paths. His room still smelled of her. Her phone still had his picture as wallpaper. Same reason. Different thoughts. He was reminded of her again. Chided himself. She again bumped into a memory. Ignored herself. They both smiled. They both frowned. Love taught them both the extremes. Medhavi

They met. They fell in love. He cheated. She stayed. He wanted a last chance. She gave him twenty. He cheated. He abandoned her. She cried. She begged.  She left. He never called. She broke down.  She rose again. He replaced her.  She felt hurt. He insulted her. She retaliated.  He left. She smiled again.  He's a nobody. She's an example.

Nikle thhe Ghar se aayeena khareedne hum, Khud se mulaaqaat huye ek arsaa guzar chuka thha. Thhe aayeene Ghar mein kitne magar darmiyaan ek parchaayi si thhi, Apne gunaahon ko Maine kayi baar jinmein dekha. Mittaana chaaha Jo unko toh haath kabhi chhile toh kabhi jal gaye. Khud se saamna karne se phir hum katraane se lage. Phir socha shaayad aayeene ka kasoor hai, Naye aayeene ki hum ko zaroorat hai. Nikle bazaar mein toh har aayeene ke saath woh parchaayi bhi chalti rahi, halki dhundhli par, baar baar gunaahon ko yaad karaati rahi. Samajh gaye hum uss pal ek baat zindagi ki, khud se peecha churraana badda mushkil hai. Karam hon achche toh parchaayi dhundhlaane lagti hai, warna baar baar khud ko khud se daraane lagti hai ... Koi aayeena Na Mila mujhko jismein dekh khud se nazar main Mila paayi.. phir samjha ki khattaayein Jo ki hain jaane anjaane mein, unko sahi karne ka waqt aa chuka hai. Khud se takraane ka waqt aa chuka hai. Khud ko paane ka waqt aa chuka hai. Medhavi

Kyun bhulaayi huyi woh kahaani yaad aayi Aaj Na jaane kyun yun hi tumhari yaad aayi Mohabbat karni seekhi tumse Aur shaayad toot kar tumse hi ki thhi.. Raahein ho gayi judaa lekin Na jaane kyun aaj soch tumko, muskaan si labh pe aayi... Woh bachkaani si baatein aur anginat yaadein Kyun laut aayi aaj zehen mein bewajah Woh choti choti cheezein aaj phir utha ke Dekhi aur khud se phir se poocha Kyun tumhari yaad aayi... Hanste hanste jab aankhein Nam ho jaati thhi Aur bin soche samjhe bas hate guzar jaate thhe Ek dusre mein gum hum jaise duniya kahan dekh paate thhe Ghar se bewajah bas yun hi nikal jaate thhe... Tum rehte ho shaamil ab bhi meri har haar Jeet mein Kabhi chaah kar bhi Na de sake tumhe koi bad-dua hum Deewanagi kahein ya bas be-intehaan mohabbat Laut ke dekho sadaa tum par hi aake thehri Hum nikal chuke hain aage aur woh waqt guzar chuka hai Phir uss waqt ko pakadd kar muskuraane ki haq ab bhi hai mujhko Socha aaj kar dein shukriya ki kam...

Badde lambe lagte hain din, Baddi choti lagti hain raatein, Thak jaate hain hum magar, Nahin khatm hoti hain yeh baatein... Kuch mausam ki, kuch khaane ki, Kuch aaj, kuch guzre zamaane ki, Kuch hansi ki, kuch nami ki, Kuch haasil, aur kuch kami ki, Kuch baarish ki, kuch dhoop ki, Kuch kareeb, aur kuch door ki, Na jaane kitni baatein, kitne khwaab, kitni inaayatein, Na jaane kitne sawaal, kitne jawaab, kitni aayatein... Ban Gaye ho aadat tum, Ab kuch darr bhi lagta hai, Ki Na rahi aadat bewajah muskuraane ki, Aur ab yeh har roz hone laga hai, Na rahi aadat khushi bas yun hi paane ki, Aur ab yeh bin baat takraane lagi hai... Ek daffa chhoo lo toh yakeen aa jaaye, ki yeh khwaab nahin, Magar yeh faasle, yeh taqdeer hai aaddhe, jiska koi jawaab nahin, Chalo phir aaj raat karte hain baatein, bin baat ke phir hanste hain, Yeh jaan kar ki yeh waqt bhi, kuch waqt ka mohtaaj hai, chalo phir bhi kuch waqt hi sahi, khushi se Na ghabraate hain... Medhavi ...

Na maana Karo Yun saari baatein hamari Humne toh khud ki Sunni kab ki chorr di Waqt guzar jaata hai khabar nahin hoti Yeh choti choti si cheezein kab ban jaati hain keemti...

Hain kitni baatein Jo  khud se chupaayi hain, Hain kitni yaadein Jo kahin andar dabaayi hain, Woh baatein Jo har raat saikaron sawaal uthaati hain, Woh yaadein Jo zehen ke andar chillaati hain, Woh hazaaron khayaal Jo kamzor banaate hain, Woh kuch aas ke tinke Jo phir dil ko sambhaalte hain... Woh neend jaldi aa jaane ki har raat ki tamanna, Ghar thak kar laut ke woh har roz aana, Khud ko gawaana kabhi cheezon mein kho kar, Khud ko rijhaana jhooti ummeedein phir de kar... Zindagi kahin thehri bhi nahin par bas chal hi rahi hai, Kamiyaan hain bahut phir bhi sambhal hi rahi hai, Aise mein jab raatein baaton se banttne lagein, Aur sawaalon ke jawaab yun hi Milne lagein, Toh ek pal ko gum sa ho jaata hai mann yeh, Ek ajab si hai yeh bechaini aur chubhan yeh... Jo raatein thhi tanha ab kyun achchi lagne lagi hain, Jo baatein daraati thhi ab kyun hausale dene lagi hain, Yahi soch bas yahan muskuraa rahi hun, Yeh Jo ho raha hai yakeen uspe khud ko dilwaa rahi...

 I caught myself again re-reading your old texts and smiling all by myself,   I still see our pictures together and feel like diving deep into them and never coming back from that moment, I still dream of you and wake up with your smell in my soul, I still close my eyes and feel your lips kissing my forehead,  I hold my own hand and try to feel your warmth again, I still laugh at myself remembering the day I counted your eye lashes, I still treasure those coins left from our first date's bill,   I know you're no longer mine and cry my heart out all day, all night, I know you can't ever be mine and I tell that to myself again and again,  But yes that's true that love doesn't know these rules and decisions made just in day, This heart loves you n lives on the idea of you, of us, and thus, can't just let go. But yes I'll let you go this time because your love faded off and I lost, Yes I'll not force you or beg, because now it'...

Mat haq cheeno mujhse, Tumse har din yeh poochne ka Kaise ho, kahan ho tum, Khaana khaaya, Ghar kab pahunch rahe ho tum... Mat haq cheeno mujhse Tumko dekhne ka, Jab subha subha uthte ho tum, Kuch soch bas muskuraa jab dete ho, Shaam jab thak kar laut-te ho tum, Bin kahe bas ishaare samajhte ho jab tum... Mat haq cheeno mujhse, Tumhare uljhe baal sanwaarne ka, Tumse apna naam baar baar sunne ka, Tumhara kamra har din sametne ka... Mat haq cheeno mujhse, Tumhe pyaar jataane ka, Tumse aur mohabbat karne ka, Tum mein aur gum hone ka... Mat haq cheeno mujhse, Tumko apna kehne ka, Khud ko tumhara banaane ka, Tum par har din jee phir marne ka... Luttne do, hone do Barbaad mujhe, Shaayad is dil ko koi aas Miley, Tere intezaar mein jeene mein, Shaayad meri yeh pyaas bujhe... Ab Na kaho bhoolne ko mujhe, Der ho gayi bahut, Aage hum nikal aaye hain bahut, Ab Na kaho mera naam Na lo, Ki Tu ban gaya meri ab ibaadat... Na cheeno yeh chote chot...

Kayi baar aisa laga mujhe Mudd ke dekhungi toh tum khadde hoge Shaayad kahin se chhup kar Mujhe dekh rahe hoge... Kab bhool gaye tum mujhko Kab peeche chorr aaye tum humko Iss sawaal se bandh kar chal raha hai waqt Kya pata thha itna mehenga padega guzaara... Phir koi baat yaad aa jaati hai Aur ek pal ki hansi ban jaati hai Aur wahi baat phir Na jaane kyun Aankhon mein nami bhar jaati hai... Intezaar nahin tumhara lekin Intezaar bhi hai, Na jaane kyun Ummeed nahin ab bachchi koi Ummeed bhi hai, Na jaane kyun... Jab Toota dil toh aawaaz Na huyi koi Mere aas paas duniya hai ab bhi waisi hi Bas sab badal gaya mere liye Sab ulajh gaya bas mere liye... Mukhautte kitne pehnun main Jhooth khud se kitne kahun Aisa lagta hai zindagi khatam huyi Isay kaise sirf ek kissa kahun... Medhavi

Woh dekhti hi nahin aayeene ko gaur se aajkal, Main chhup chhup kar usko dekha karta hun... Meri nazar parchaayi si uske saath saath chalti hai, Uske kadmon ke saath meri raah nikalti hai... Uski khushbu uss se pehle mere zehen mein bhar jaati hai, Uski aawaaz uss ke dil se pehle mujh tak pahunch jaati hai... Itni nazdeeki toh Na thhi kabhi jab tere saath thha, Thode faasle thhe thodi doori ka ehsaas thha... Ab Na dekh Sakti hai tu mujhe, Na mehsoos main hota hun, Par tere saath uthta baithta aur sota hun... Kehte hain log ki main iss duniya mein nahin raha ab, Unko kya khabar ki ab bhi main tujhmein jeeta hun... I miss you Abhi Medhavi 19-09-16

Depression is when you know that the one who is helping you is giving you the same advice that you would've given to any of your friends in the same situation as yours, but you realise that you have forgotten how to talk to yourself and also that you don't trust yourself with your life any longer and prefer talking to a friend or even a stranger.. whoever is willing to listen to you. Depression is when you feel scared of being happy, being attached to somebody, of self appreciation, of your own choices, decisions, thoughts and finally yourself. This fear lives with you, within you practically, all the time. You unintentionally end up seeing the negatives of situations and disliking yourself. This doesn't come into your thoughts or realisation because you are too lost escaping the web that you have created for yourself through your own thoughts. Depression is serious. It needs attention. Depression is when you don't want to get up from your bed every morning. It...

Koi kaise chuddaaye aadat Jo saanson se juddi ho, bhula de kaise ek pal mein mohabbat Jo vaadon se bandhi ho, mitta de kaise khwaab saare Jo ummeedon se saje hon, Chorr de kaise karni ibaadat Jo shaksiyat se simte hon... Ek pal mein keh gaye kuch nahin woh hamare Bhram todd gaye jaise Jhoothe thhe woh lamhe saare Ab baithe hain andheron se ghiri Ek mehfil mein hum akele Soch rahe hain Kaun sa jaam pee lein Jo maan sakein ki yeh sab sach hai... Medhavi

Kya tumko bhi... Kya tumko bhi dooriyon ka ehsaas hota hai Ya woh andaaza bhi takra kar mere hi paas laut aata hai... Kya tumko bhi aisa lagta hai mujhe gale lagaate waqt Ki dhadkanon ka safar ek hi tarfaa reh jaata hai Ya ab kareeb aana bhi jaise tumhare liye ek samjhautaa hai... Kya tumko bhi khwaab wali mulaaqaatein zaada sach si lagti hain Ya yeh bhi bas mere hi dil ka afsaana hai... Kya tumko woh pehle jaise haath pakadne ko dil karta hai Ya bas yeh mere hi dil ka ankahaa sa Armaan hai... Kya tumko bhi lagta hai ki mohabbat kabhi dene ki zarurat hai Ya ab bas aadat si ho gayi hai tumhe sirf paane ki... Kya tumko bhi humein chorr ke jaane ka khayaal aata hai Ya yeh bhi vehem hai mera ki wajah dhundhte ho tum dur jaane ki... Kya tumko bhi iss saath se juddi judaayi ka ranjh o ghum sataata hai Ya yeh bhi koi aur tumko kisi aur andaaz se samjhaata hai... Kya tumko bhi meri aankhon mein dekh talaash rehti hai bekaraari ki Ya meri tarah tumne bh...

Khwaabeeda se tum aaj phir aa gaye saamne Harf - harf likhna chaaha taabeer ko teri par tujh mein hi gum ho gaya har zarra mera... Ba - dastoor raha khayaal tera zehen mein rawaan rawaan Aabshaar sa behta raha waqt bhi Zara Zara Tujhko paaya mukhtalif is zamaane se Warna iztiraar hum yun hi nahin hua karte Vasl kuch yun uns ka chhaa gaya Hum pe Ki thakte nahin aajkal hum sitaare ginte ginte... Ab bhi muntazir tere deedaar ko hum Mayassar saare sawaal rakhe baithe hain Ki ruhaaniyat yun mili ek nazar se Ek mulaaqaat ka khwaab liye baithe hain... Medhavi Words and their meanings - *Khwaabeeda - dreamy *Harf - letter *Taabeer - interpretation of dreams *Ba - dastoor - unaltered *Aabshaar - waterfall *Mukhtalif - different *Iztiraar - restless *Vasl - passion *Uns - love *Muntazir - awaiting *Mayassar - available *Ruhaaniyat - soulfulness

Can a person lose feelings for someone he's/she's madly been in love with ? Not post break up or a fight or an argument, but being in a relationship ? Can he/she just wake up one morning with no love for the same person he/she was crazy about a few days back ? Is this possible ? Yes. It is. And this happens only due to one reason, that is, being drained out. You meet somebody, you fall in love, the journey seems to be dream like, there are ups and downs, fights and laughter, failures and success, struggles and strength, but you stay steady and move through all those phases. This is normal. But what if only one person is held responsible or holds the responsibility of the entire relationship ? Only one person, say A, prioritises, compromises, sacrifices, stays loyal and gives it all, while the other person, say B, takes A for granted, never makes an effort, isn't considerate, never compromises, never goes out of the way, fools around, cheats and just keeps taking it al...

Ek mod par chhoot gaya woh khwaab,  Jiske irt girt zindagi ki manzil khurchi thhi.  Ab bhi Na jaane kyun, Woh lakeerein chheel deti hain paanv mere. Jahaan daastaan gehraani thhi  wahan sehraa se takraa gaya saahil,  jahaan ranjishein bhulaani thhi  wahan shikvon mein ghul gaye manzar. Ab pukaarein bhi toh kisse,  shikaayat karein bhi toh kya,  ek kashti par sawaar thha khwaab woh,  aur samandar ke cheenton ne hi neendein khol di hamari... Medhavi

Ek tasveer nigaahon ke saath har waqt chalti rehti hai Baat karne ruko toh gum ho jaati hai Socha bhula dun kuch palon ke liye tujhko Par dekh Teri namaujoodgi bhi ab Wajood ban baithi hai... Medhavi

And one day your best friend just leaves you alone in this world... With a million memories n a billion regrets. You don't know how to deal with it.. how to undo things.. how to apologise for a hundred things.. how to show all the love n care at once when the person is not there anymore. He taught me about life.. he taught me about second chances.. he taught me how to love.. he taught me how important patience was.. n now all of a sudden he's gone. . . Reason ?  A sudden road accident.. drunken driving.. over speeding .. n taking life for granted ! We had to meet Abhi.. you're listening ? We had to meet this weekend... We had to eat Dal Delhicious at Kabab express. . Chicken lasagne at big chill n what not.. we had to do our movie marathon . . . You had to take me to Murthal... N gift me a Labrador at my wedding.. we had to do so much.. n you left me alone. I don't know how to live this life anymore. I want to die n come to you. You taught me never to give u...

I'm scared of pain and heartache now, coz you were the one who cured it all. A call away and miles apart, you knew how to deal with me from the start... You promised me so many forevers and always, You just went away leaving me stuck up in life's maze, I close my eyes and see you there, And people don't believe but I feel you everywhere... Walking with me, talking to me,  laughing with me, crying with me. People also think I'm going insane, Or I'm not able to deal with this pain... But how should I collect all my concerns, Which is beyond what others think or say. I know how empty I feel, Dealing with losing you and never getting back... It would've been different if you were miles away, Bed ridden or ill, but hopes of things becoming okay, But you left without a message, leaving me in guilt n regrets, With just 'I coulds' and 'why I couldnts' Each moment seems like a million hours, And you expect me to live my ...

Dhundha tujhe un sab galliyon mein, Jahaan jahaan ummeed thhi, Pukaara tujhe chilla chilla kar, Par shayad mere hausalon mein kami thhi... Sun raha hai tu mujhe, Shayad dekh bhi raha hai, Teri uss duniya mein shayad, Yeh sab mumkin har tarah hai... Par soch kabhi mera bhi, Hun main yahan be-ummeed, Sab pooch rahe hain mujhse, Aur main keh rahi hun sab theek... Sambhaalna hai tere apnon ko, Par mujhe sambhaalne wala koi nahin, Na jaane neend kab aayegi, Na jaane kab chain milega, Itni thhi baatein kehne ko, Par tune suna hi nahin... Naraaz Hun tujhse aur khud se kar rahi hun nafrat be - intehaan main, Yeh soch soch ki woh aakhiri baar tujhse baat Na ki thhi maine, Bahut se kaash hain jin mein ab zindagi bitaani hai, Jo Na jaan sake tujhe unhe Teri kahaani sunaani hai, Par ek khauff sa ho gaya hai zindagi se, Tere bin jeene se ghabraata hai yeh dil, Kho gaye saare raaste, Gumshuda si ho gayi kuch aise manzil... ...

How does it feel to be in love with someone you can never be with ? Similar question ? Similar situation ? Similar story ? Yeah. Fortunately or unfortunately. The worst part about it being meeting the perfect person at the most imperfect time of your life.. when all you need is time and that is the only thing that you don't have. And you feel, all your life went in vain being with the wrong people, investing in the wrong relationships, getting your heart broken by the unworthy and not being able to do anything who is worth everything. Dilemma or decision ? Decision or choice ? Choice or the only option ? Who can make out ? Nobody ! People see you with the person and ask where's it going and you have no answer. You can just look at the significant other, smile and stay speechless. Life is unfair ? Or time is ? You aren't capable enough or circumstances are paralytic ? Whose fault is it ? Why ? Unanswered questions about unreasonable love... Crazy, selfish yet selfless love...

🫧Being in love with an illusion... I don't know how many people have gone through this feeling... Of being in love with an illusion.. of being sure of somebody being a person who he is not in real but pretends to be all the time and you fall in love with the very idea of that person. It's not that that the person is perfect... But even the imperfections are painted when they claim to be their bare self before you but in real have so many things they would never ever share. You end up making them a part of everything, sharing each bit of your life.. present past future plans dreams fears and what not.. basically being your bare self n letting all your vulnerable parts be shown in light. But here the difference is... That there's no pretence. It is all real.. but this person knows how to channelise these intimate strengths n weaknesses of yours. Life changes.. for better then the best.. then bad to the worse because they know how to lie to you.. how to cheat over you.. ...

Khaali zindagi hai Bharne ko waqt bhi nahin Aur woh aa gaye liye dil apna Poochte hain kya Zara bhi jagah nahin ? Medhavi

Talaash Ek arsa guzar gaya khul ke hasse huye. Na jaane kab khushi ke khauff mein rehne ki aadat padd gayi. Ab bhool jaate hain kabhi kabhi ki zinda bhi hain. Phir mehsoos karte hain ki saansein chal toh rahi hain. Hairaani ki hai baat ki sabko yaad mera Wajood hai, par kisi ko dikhta nahin ki in aankhon mein toote khwaabon ke alaawa aur kuch bhi nahin. Udaasi se kar li hai dosti kuch iss tarah ki khushi ke mukhautte ke peeche uska naam o nishaan dikhta nahin. Har subha jab aankhein kholti Hun, toh dhundhlaayi si zindagi dekh khud par hansti hun. Lagta hai chalo ek aur din aaya hai, jee kar dekhte hain. Ummeed toh kab ki chorr di, dhokhe ka bhi ab darr nahin, bas yun hi pehne ek mukkammal insaan ki poshaak, yahi soch phir hum Ghar se nikal jaate hain. Din guzar jaata hai kuch kaam mein, toh kuch aaraam mein, par ummeedein dene ka yeh silsila ab bhi jaari hai. Khud ko khud se ummeed nahin aur har din Na jaane kitni zindagiyon ko samajhne ki koshish main karti Hun. Achcha lagta hai...

बड़ी बेसब्र थी ज़िन्दगी,  तेरे  आने से एक ठेहराव सा आ गया,  खुद को भूला चुके थे,  तेरे  आने से खुद का साथ आ गया... मुफलिसी थी ज़जबातों  की,  ख़ुशी पा कर खोने का खौफ़  था... मुफलिसी थी ज़जबातों  की,  ख़ुशी पा कर खोने का खौफ़  था... मषालें जल चुकी थी,  और दार्वाजे पर दस्तकें सैकडों थी ,  हमे  आस ना थी कोई,  और तूफानो  का यकीन था... तेरे  आने की  रौशनी से,  आँखें  चुंधिया  सी गयी  हैँ , अब ना कहना यह ख्वाब हैं,  नींद से जगा कर,  अब ना दोश देना हमें ,  अगर बर्बाद भी हो जायें इश्क में तेरे,  कि आबाद तुमसे हुए हैँ,  आजाद भी तुमने किया  हैं,  अब खुद को पा  कर खोने का डर नहीं,  कि  हमको खुद के काबिल भी तुमहे ही किया  हैं..  मेधावी  Medhavi

Woh raatein Jo aayi nahin hain abhi tak Unke saare khwaab tumhare naam kar aaye hain Mukaddar se mili hain Jo kuch yeh saansein saath tere Unko kahin sheher ke har kone mein dafn kar aaye hain Na baant-na ek lamha bhi iss deewanagi ka kisi gair ke saath Ki ab mausamon ki hawaayein bhi waffayein nibhaati hain mujhse Medhavi Medz

'You care too much!', he said. 'I'm not a kid, I'm an adult. Stop asking me if I had my lunch. Ofcourse I had, I eat it everyday n if I don't, it's no big deal. Stop asking me when I'll come back, how am I travelling or who is dropping me back. Stop asking me if I am responsible enough when I'm drinking. I can take care of myself. I'm not a baby for God's sake!'. She stood there. Quiet. Numb. Hurt. But still quiet. 'Sorry', she said. 'I know you eat your lunch everyday, but I like eating mine, after I know you are full. I know you are an adult n can travel safe, but I'm scared, coz I value you, I'm scared when you are drunk n you drive, I'm scared when you are sleepy n you travel late. I know you're not a baby. But you don't realize. You are my life and I protect you just the way I protect myself. I like hearing from you, nothing fancy or romantic, but just that 'I am okay', 'I'll be...

I always heard stories about love... watched films.. n read poetry... and had certain ideas n ideologies about it. Unconditional.. unselfish... patient.. kind... that's all what I had always believed until I met you. Because it was then when I understood and felt the actual depth of this four letter word. It is not just unconditional but a little demanding... as it demands some level of acknowledgement if not love in return. It is not just unselfish because it expects  ... as it desires fidelity.. it is not just patient but restless as it endures pain but still manages to show its happiest phase... it is not just kind but a little mean.. as it makes us negative towards the person who wants to hamper it's essence. I have learnt about all the paradigms of Love through you... I have seen myself changing for good.. for bad... for the best n the worst. I have seen myself growing n witnessed my own decline.. I have seen my own damage n recovery... I have learnt so m...

Ek thamaa hua lamha Ek naakaam si koshish Ek guzra hua manzar Ek aane wala kal Ek khaamosh si guftagu Ek naamumkin si justaju Ek benaam sa rishtaa Ek bhoola hua kissaa Ek andheri gali si Ek bujhta sa diyaa... Kuch nazaron ki uljhan Adhoori mulaaqaatein Kuch kaanch se naazuk Adharon ki baatein Kuch hasraton ke tukde Sach se phir takraaye Kuch saanson ke zarre Tere itr se phir chot khaaye... Yeh kaun sa manzar Yeh kaun si manzil Yeh kaun sa mukhautaa Phir zindagi ne pehna Jis se bhaagte aaye Daaman churra kar Woh phir piro baitha Dil dhadkanon se....

गुज़र जाती ज़िन्दगी बेवजह धागाओं से शिकवे करते करते,  अगर तुमने फिर मुड़ के देखा ना होता... राहें रहती खफा सी मंजिलों  से,  अगर तुमने हाथ छोड़ कर फिर पकड़ा ना होता ... मोहब्बत एक ल्फज ही रह जाता,  काय़ानात  में खोये ज़रे की तरह,  अगर तुमने ज़हन में इसका रंग ना घोला  होता... - मेधावी 

Have you ever been crazy in love ? To the extent that You see rainbows in their eyes And just choose to ignore all lies... You like holding their hand Even after months n years have passed... You dress up, with them in your mind And put efforts to impress though they are Already yours... You may dull yourself to make them shine, And still lighten up their path to glory... You feel enriched when you motivate them And successful when you see them rewarded... You like doing their household chores And that too with a wide smile... You still like smelling their clothes And having a conversation every other time... You collect their belongings n keep them around No matter it's a muffler or a pen, a wrapper or a bill... You dance on your way to work Because in the evening you have a date... No matter it may be the 250th But you just don't want to get late... Not because you're punctual or something But just because you don't want...

Life is nothing but a journey of changing weathers, tastes, relationships and priorities. Sometimes this change is zippy, sometimes bewitching.. sometimes appauling, sometimes tenable.. and these changes make us stronger, teach us with the mysterious zonks of life. These come with people, seasons and phases. Changes aren't defined. They come n go..hurt and heal.. These mixed emotions come with change..the Winds of Change. Life is nothing but a combat of the heart and the mind. We learn so much from it. We meet so many kinds of people, we make so many relationships, we take decisions, we take up responsibilities.. Every person, every relationship improves us, sooner or later, we learn something good from it. Relationships give birth to new expectations, desires, dreams and perceptions. A relationship has four stages, First stage is AFFILIATION, companionship.. In this stage, two people conceive and implement a relationship. It can be any relationship, lov...

Mohabbat ki sazaa agar hoti Toh hum bhi kaid ho jaate Teri nazar ke paimaanon se yun Aazaad ho jaate Na hota nasha, Na lagti lat Phir bhi yun hi bematlab Tere karzdaar ho jaate Kuch yun giraftaar ho jaate Tere naam ko likh kar Sajdaa karte shabh dopahari Kuch yun hi behadh se Hum tere ghulaam ho jaate Sunaate daastaan e ishq Judaayi ke adhyaay se Kuch yun Teri meri kehte log Aur sadiyon tak dohraate....

Thokar kha kar zamaane bhar se Jab ummeed bhi niraash ho chuki thhi Subha ki dhoop dhundlaa chuki thhi Aur raat ke andheron se dosti gehri thhi Takraa gaye hum tumse, bheed bhare is sheher mein Bauchaaron mein beh gaye hum, Teri khushbu-on ki... Jo kishton se Batora hua tha yakeen Woh bhi naam tere kar diya Aankhein moond kar har hausala Tera haath pakde chal diya Ek din jab aankhein khuli Andheri raaton ka woh sitaara bhi Na thha Aur ab tanhaayi ka saath gawaara bhi Na thha Par jab tum bhi nikle auron se Aitbaar sab par ho gaya Hum mein hi thhi kamiyaan saari Dekho phir se andhera jeet gaya... Medhavi

Jab zindagi ko noor dene wali mohabbat, har rang udda le gayi, Dil ke darwaaze par ek koraa kaagaz uddta sa aakar phir dastak dene laga. Utha kar dekha, toh yaadon ki syaahi se lamhon ki daastaan likhi thhi. Hum na uss kaagaz ko phaad sake, Aur na jhanjhodd kar lamhe uss se jhaad sake, Bas yun hi ulat palat kar dekh, phir se mod marod ke rakh liye apne paas.... Jab jab yaad aate thhe woh guzre din, Hum un kisson ko phir se dohraate thhe, unn kori yaadon ke zariye. Lekin phir unka vaasta, saanson se bandhne laga, Juda ho chuke thhe hum,  phir bhi kareeb guzre kal se karne laga.... Ek din woh kaagaz ka tukkda, apne kamre ki ek daraaj mein andar ghussa ke rakh diye, Aur phir dabe paaon apne hi kamre se Choron ki tarah nikal gaye, Jaise khud se chori kar ke khud se bhaag rahe thhe, Na jaane iss neend mein kiske khwaab mein jaag rahe thhe... Rangon ka sunehra - pan soona sa lagne laga, Ghum apni fitrat se majboor laut ke aane laga, Zindagi jaise theher ...

Ishq ke usool kabhi kitaabi baaton se nahin seekhe Maine Bahut kiye kharch jazbaat is dil ke saudon mein har baar Maine Diye mauke anginat aur aitbaar toot-te huye dekha Sochi thhi jannat aur dil ko bazaar mein lut-te huye dekha Phir bhi ishq ko Na kosaa kabhi Na kosaa apni taqdeer ko Saji rehne Di dil ke darwaaze par Ummeed ki tasveer maine Darpan se Na ki shikaayat Na kabhi dareeche se jhaank kar dekha Bas ek khwaab Maine yun hi Har subha saanjh dekha Ishq ko ishq mil jaayega Tham jaayenge toofaan Raat guzar jaayegi yun hi Aur Phir niklegi ujli si subha Medhavi 

Kuch Teri khushboo mein bheege thhe Kuch teri ungliyon se lipte thhe Unn khatton ke purjon mein Maayeene hazaar bikhre thhe Kuch lafzon mein muskuraahatein aaj bhi dikhti hain Tere haath ki haraaratein aaj bhi mehsoos hoti hain Kuch lafz Jinhe ashqon NE dhundhla kar diya thha Kuch lafz Jinhe raaton NE jawaani bakshi thhi Unn sabko samet kar dheere dheere Main aaj phir Tera likha khatt padh rahi Hun Shayad sirf nafrat hai ab iss dil ke har zarre mein mere Aur ab is nafrat se mohabbat ka aakhiri usool poora kar rahi Hun.. Medhavi

तेरे साथ हो कर भी तेरा   इंतेजार किया है,  कुछ इस तरह मैने तुझसे प्यार किया है... टूट कर पल पल इस ऋषते को एक नाम दिया है,  कुछ इस तरह अपनी मोहब्बत को ये मुकांम  दिया है..   शेह  को तेरी खुद की मात से  सावार दिया है,  कुछ इस तरह हर बाज़ी को तेरे आगे हार दिया है... खुदगर्जी से  बस आज तक एक काम किया है,  ज़िन्दगी को जो  अपनी मैने तेरे नाम किया है... देख कर तुझको भूल बैठी मजहब और खुदा अपना ,  कुछ इस तरह तुझे सब से  उपर मान लिया  है... कुछ इस तरह मैने तुझसे प्यार किया है... कुछ इस तरह मैने तुझसे प्यार किया है...

Hawaayein tumko jab choo jaayengi Aur khushbu meri si aayegi Bas moond ke aankhein muskura dena Ek aahat si tumhe choo jaayegi Woh ehsaas hoga koi shaayad mera Ya waqt se toota lamha laut aayega Iss tarah mulaaqaat ka yun hi phir se Tumko bhi bahaana mil jaayega Medhavi Shamaa yeh bujh jaayegi Waqt yeh guzar jaayega Par har raat yun hi tumse Mujhe choo kar chaand Milne aayega Keh dena saari baatein yun hi Samajhna main sun rahi Hun kahin Ki kuch rishte aasmaan zameen ki samajh se pare hote hain... Medhavi Ummeed nahin koi tumse Bas iss baat ka sukoon hai Koi baat tumhe agar karni ho Toh naam mera hi yaad aata hai... Medhavi

Isn't it wonderful to actually witness how crazy yet remarkable God has made the entire phenomenon of birth? Especially when you see the newbornies of your siblings growing up slowly n slowly.. Reaching new horizons n discovering this beautiful world... Learning the little do's n dont's of life.. Taking risks to get down from the bed without falling or exactly being able to express what they mean... Your siblings who you have yourselves grown up with.. Been a part of their own struggles of learning n unlearning things... Learnt so many lessons from them.. Seen them in their weakest phases n then their successful days... These little bunches of wonder are such a joy to us.. As you can see your siblings n some part of you as well being reborn n living another life in front of you. You get a new designation n suddenly you realize that you have grown up n these are the presents by the almighty to create a better tomorrow. When you see their innocent faces n the way they a...

Jo usne kabhi kaha nahin Woh sunne ki aadat lag gayi Jaanleva kehte hain jisse Humko woh rog mohabbat lag gayi... Medhavi Jism yeh Tera ghulaam ho gaya Dhadkan ki dastak bhi Teri pehchaan ho gaya Phir mohabbat mein katl e aam ho gaya Aur kehte hain log ki phir naam mera badnaam ho gaya Medhavi

Raat ki umra katti nahin Par roshni ne andhera kar diya Guzra hua waqt phir laut aata Magar usne Mudd kar dekha hi nahin... -Medhavi 04.04.16

Did you look at her again? The way you looked the first time. Did you hold her hand again? And caressed it for a little long. Did you place your arm around? Held her closer and kissed her ears. Did you smell her, when she just woke up? And tell her again that she's still a dream. The question here is if your love continued Or expired with the passing weather... The concern here is if your attention if faded Did it divide between her and someone else... Its not about being insecure but about keeping the spark alive Its not about being unsure but about deepening the love and make it survive... Through the darkness through the pain Just say it once again... An "I love you" is not just a phrase my dear Its still the small yet deep old school thing... Say it again say it aloud Let your heart scream out Between the everyday everything Just take out time for these little things... Dont take her for granted oh boy She wont leave but ...

Gustaakh dil ka bas itna sa kasoor thha Mohabbat mein aapki zarra zarra iska masroof thha Kabhi socha kahein aapko yeh daastaan e ishq Phir samjha ki bayaan karna bhi fizool thha... Jab rag rag mein shaamil junoon ho Uss jism ko kahan ek pal ka sukoon ho Jab dhadkan bhi dhadakne lage fariyaad mein Aur saansein bhi chalne lagein ussi ke saath mein... Toh samajh jaana ae bekasoor mulaazim dil ke Mohabbat mein Tera naam bhi shaamil ho gaya hai... Medhavi

Khat jala chuki thhi Par mann se jalne ka nishaan naa mitta thha... Kisse bhula chuki thhi Par zehen mein phir bhi Tera naam goonjta thha... Waqt guzar gaya Main bhi aage badh gayi Ab peeche Mudd kar nazar Tujhko dhundhti nahin.. Ab bhool gayi Hun tujhe Dhundhli yaadein bhi mitt gayi hain Sarhadon ke paar bhi shaayad Guzre lamhon ki tasveer nahin hai... Medhavi

सागर किनारे यूँ  ही चलते - चलते , हो गई  दोस्ती इन  रेत के तिनकों से, कुछ हाथ में रखे, तो हवा से उड़ गए ,  कस  के पकड़े , तो ऊंगलियों के बीच से फिसल गए ,  डूबते  हुए  सूरज को देखते देखते,  उन तिनकों से  यूँ ही खेलते खेलते, सीख लिया  हमने एक सबक मोहब्बत का,  अगर खोने का डर  ना हो,  तो कोई और बीच में आ जायेगा ,  अगर बन्दीषे  लगाओ ,  तो हमसफर  तनहा  रह जायेगा ,  असली मोहब्बत वो है,  जो  शिद्धत से  कैद का वास्ता ना रखे ,  आजाद रखे, खुले रखे दार्वाजे , और मिलने  दे राह मन ज़िलों  को... 05-03-16 Medhavi

Have you loved someone so much ? That the sound of their laughter made your soul sing?  That their smell lingered on your skin without a single touch? That you felt happy just knowing the fact that the wind that just brushed them touched you too?  That their mere presence brought tears to your eyes without any win or loss?  That their success meant your dreams coming true? That their voice echoed in your heart even days after they left?  That their mere sight made you pinch yourself to believe that they are actually there?  That their simplest of ways of doing the daily chores made you gaze at them like they are your moon? That their smile meant the world to you even after it came after breaking your heart or leaving you? That their happiness meant your glory ? Have you ever loved somebody so much ??

Hai kitna kasoorwaar tu Mujhe deewana banaane mein... Hai kitna kasoorwaar tu Mujhe deewana banaane mein... Yeh sochte sochte tujhpar ghazal likh rahi hun main... Teri bekhabari ko junoon bana kar... Teri bekhabari ko junoon bana kar... Aaj Phir khud par hans rahi hun main... Tujhmein hai baat woh kya Yeh ab bhi jaanti nahin hun main.. Tujhmein hai baat woh kya Yeh ab bhi jaanti nahin hun main.. Bas phir tujhko dekh kar tujhse aur mohabbat kar rahi hun main... Ibaadat Ibaadat ka naam dun agar... Ibaadat Ibaadat ka naam dun agar... Toh khuda se mukar rahi hun main... Ibaadat Ibaadat ka naam dun agar... Ibaadat Ibaadat ka naam dun agar... Toh khuda se mukar rahi hun main... Phir bhi tere naam ka kalma phir se dohraa rahi hun main Zindagi tere bin guzarni hai Yeh bhi jaanti hun main... Zindagi tere bin guzarni hai Yeh bhi jaanti hun main... Phir bhi apne aaj se kal ko tabaah kar rahi hun main..

You are the mystery that I never want to unfold, You are so beautiful in your own secret ways, I love the way you recite poetry through your eyes, The way you put forward all your different ideas, The way you quietly listen to me amongst the crowd, The way you gaze at stars to find a contstellation of your own, The way you flip your fingers around the glass that you hold, The way you sip your drink like a year's seasons pass by, Is it your smell that still lingers around my clothes, A bit around the sleeves, a little around the fur, You left so much with me without any intention, You made me fall or drown in you, I still cant express, But just to be precise and clear, You're unique in your own endless ways, You're the day, You're the night, You are everywhere... Medhavi

Kya meri tarah tumhe bhi talaash hai, Guzre waqt ke khoye huye purzon ki, Jinse shaayad aane wale waqt ki marrammat ho sake.... Kya meri tarah tumhe bhi khushi ki aas hai, Jo guzre waqt ki dhundh mein gumshuda si, Mausamon ki hawa mein thodi thodi chhoo jaati hai ab bhi humein... Kya guzre afsaane bhula sake tum, Ya ab bhi tumko woh baatein zubaani yaad hain meri tarah... Kya woh tohfe phek chuke tum, Ya ab bhi kamre mein sajaaye rakhe ho tum bhi meri tarah... Ab aage badhne bhi do, Khwaabon mein aana chorr do, Bahut be-maksad si lagti hai zindagi tumhare bina, Saath jo mumkin nahin, Ab bhi kyun mannatton mein aata hai... Kyun ab bhi saaya tumhara, Veeraniyon mein bhi dastak si deke jaata hai, Bhoolne do agar tum bhi bhool chuke, Ya yaad rakhne do agar tumne bhulaaya nahin, Na rakhenge bair koi hum , Na poochenge phir kyun bulaaya nahin, Reh lenge tanha iss baat ko yaad kar ke, Ki ek pal hi sahi din ka tumko hum yaad aate toh hain... Medhavi ...

Ho rahi thhi baatein Kuch iss tarah Ki hawa mein hasi ki goonj Aur darmiyaan dooriyon ki khushboo thhi... Kuch judaa kuch kareeb Yun hi gumshuda sa ek khayaal Jhooth aur sach ke beech jhoolta hua... Kuch khud par hasta Kuch khud se rooth-ta hua Khayaal se nikalta sawaal yun hi bin baat jhoomta hua... Kat gayi raat yun hi khaamoshiyon ki gufatagu mein Yun judd gayi ek raah ibaadat ki justajoo mein... Kuch sitaare jo chamke thhe uss raat aasmaan mein Ho gaye chaand ke kuch aur roobaroo kisi aur jahaan mein... Kuch baatein jo huyi shuru thhi baaton ke bunte jaal se Aaj judd gaye phir meri is daastaan aur aaj ke iss khayaal se... Phir likh rahi hun afsaana ussi raat ka Jispar likh chuki hun kitna ussi baat ka Woh hai khayaalon mein aaj bhi khud ko dohraata hua Hai anginat faaslon par phir bhi kareeb aata hua.... Medhavi

Aaj yun hi chalte chalte, Ek shayar se takraa gaye, Maikhaane ghum ke do, Yun hi lamhe chalkaa gaye... Kuch kahi usne aap beeti, Kuch suni maine apni kahaani bhi, Kuch zikr farmaaya usne mohabbat ka, Kuch dard phir utraa aur behki hawa bhi... Sadaayein khaamosh thhi, Kal ke dhuyein mein madhosh thhi, Samandar sookhe thhe, Sehraa-on mein tha paani... Do baaton mein kaid huyi, Woh guzre dinon ki kahaani, Woh sher padh raha thha, Kissa aage badh raha thha... Par nigaahein wahin thami thhi, Jahan humsafar chorr ke gaya tha, Khoob kaha tha kisine, Shayar se na karna mohabbat, Amar tum ho jaaoge, Woh mitega tum par zindagi bhar, Par tum na mitt sakoge... Toh ab agar chalte chalte, Kisi shayar se takraa jaana, Na kehna usay deewana, Na aage yun hi badh jaana, Sunna kisse kahaaniyaan unki zubaani, Kya pata khud se mulaaqaat ho jaaye... Medhavi

Kehne ko do kamre hain mere Ek ghar mein aur ek hostel mein Donon kamron se ek tarah ki mohabbat si hai mujhko Ghar ka kamraa bachpan se baantaa tha apni behen ke saath kyunki baantna paddta hai Aakhir behen hai aur ghar thha chota sa Yahin issi kamre mein na jaane kitne saikron lamhe kaid hain ab bhi Har nazar mein ek yaad ki tasveer ab bhi rang bhar deti hai Aur hostel ka kamra bhi baantaa kyunki baantna paddta hai Magar ek cheez hai dono kamron ki khaas si Tanhaayee ki khushboo ek si hai Ghaddi ki tik tik ki aawaaz bhi Aur hawa se takraata hua ghum ka saaz bhi Shamaa wahan bhi jalti hai raat ki Katra katra kar pighalti hai aaj bhi Yaadein kal ki peecha karte karte Aa gayin hain kuch uss kamre se iss kamre tak Na jaane kab tak juddi rahengi wajood se Dard ki saugaatein Woh beeti huyi baatein Kamre shayad badalte rahenge Par yeh khushbuyein, yeh aawaazein, yeh saaz, yeh shamaa ki garmi, yaadein aur aakhiri aas.. rooh ke saath aage badhti rahengi Kuch aur humko p...