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When did you stop dreaming ?  When did your colors started to fade ?  When did you stop liking what you saw in the mirror ?  When did you stop believing that happiness is self made ?  Was it the day someone couldn't understand how you felt, so they told you that you're losing your mind ?  Or the day when someone chose someone else over you, just because they disappointed you and didn't have the patience to keep trying to win you back ?  Was it the day your parents / friends told you that by this age you should be done with this and you're still stuck ?  Or the day when your friends cut you off because you weren't of any use to them in future ?  Was it the day when someone you love told you that you're jealous of their success ?  Or the day they told you that you control and manipulate them while you were just trying to advise ?  I know, not just one, but many people broke you, over and over and now all you feel is this heaviness and numb...

The sun couldn't enter my dark soul today,  I stood there, tanning my skin, drying my hair and soaking myself in the empties of my thoughts... The wind kept blowing,  And my hair became frizzy,  My heart was drenching,  But my eyes weren't teary... I zoned out multiple times, But I stood there, still & quiet,   My body kept reminding me,  Hydrate, rest, move,  But my heart kept yelling,  Vent, cry, share... And as someone entered the room,  I turned back with a wide smile,  And pretended that everything was good,  When asked, I said, I'm all fine,  Zoned out and confused from within,  I found myself motivating someone else,  And suddenly I woke up from my emotional slumber,  To realise that I was in a gathering of friends... I gulped down a few glasses of white wine,  Felt the wind in my hair at the 9th floor of a building high rise,  And looked around to absorb the night,  And told myself...