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Ab likh likh ke tujhko Thak gaye hain khayaal bhi Ummeed karte karte Bujh gaye hain sawaal bhi Na jaane kya baaki hai Na jaane kiski aas hai Kuch chhoot gaya tumse peeche Par ab bhi hamare dil ke paas hai Dard hota hai ab bhi Par ashq ab aankhein bharte nahin Bikhar gaye toote tinke Ab asar yeh tukdde karte nahin Guzre afsaanon mein kahin Ab bhi goonj rahi hai khushi meri Dil behlaane ko achcha bahaana hai Cheekh leti hun andar ki khaamoshi mein Doooriyaan juda kar dengi humein Yeh khayaal bhi kabhi na aaya thha Ab sochti hun toh lagta hai Taash ke patton ka aashiyaana banaaya thha.... Medhavi

Kuch baatein khud ki Main khud hi bhulaana chahti hun Magar bhoolne se pehle Kisiko bataana chahti hun Thoda darti hun Khud ki kamzoriyon se Thoda sambhalti hun Khud ki thokaron se Bahut si baatein aisi hain Jo bahut andar dafn hain Saanson ke kareeb hain Par guzar kar unse wahin thami hain Na jaane yeh kamiyaan khud ki Mere saamne ho kar bhi kab tak chuppi rahengi Jalti huyi yeh kamzoriyaan dil ke andar Kab tak chehre par bujhi rahengi Sochti hun koi miley aisa jo Mujhe sune aur kamiyon sang meri chaahe mujhe Sochti hun koi miley aisa jiss se Yeh sab baatein chupaani na padein Kab ban gayi itni kamzor main saamna karte karte aate jaate waqt ka pata na chala Bas mushkilon ke saath apna khud se bhi saath chhoot-ta raha Kisi ne aise chorra jaise hum kisi kaam ke na rahe Aur phir jisne bhi haath pakda, saath nibhaaya nahin Bhool gayi hun khud ko kuch is tarah ki darr hai shayad khud se hi Saari ummeedein bharosa mitt gaya duniya se kya khud se

Intezaar Kuch tera intezaar hai Kuch dil yeh be-ikhtiyaar hai Kuch gali yeh mehek rahi hai Ek sadi bin tere guzar gayi hai Bhooli nahin hun ab bhi Tere jism ki woh khushboo Teri aawaaz ki woh narmi Teri baaton ka woh jaadu Aur saanson ki woh garmi Neendon mein muskuraati rahi Tere khwaabon ko jagaati rahi Is tarah deewanon ki tarah Main har din bitaati rahi Ab tere aane ki khabar jo mili Yakeen de raha hai dhokaa sa ab bhi Tujhe choo kar dekhungi toh aitbaar hoga Tu hai sach mein nigaahon ki haqeeqat Vehem mein dekha hi nahin bas tujhe Tujhe baahon mein bhar kar neendein bhi haasil ki Ab tu hoga jab mere kareeb Toh gum ho jaayengi yeh neendein bhi Kayi ghante toh teri aawaaz zehen mein kaid karne mein lagenge Kayi din toh tujhe nigaahon mein bharne mein lagenge Phir jaa kar tere hone ka yakeen hoga Woh manzar na jaane kitna haseen hoga... Medhavi

Nazdeekiyon mein kaid Dooriyon ka asar thha Meri waffa se mohabbat se Woh bekhabar thha Phir bhi ab bhi usko apna bataane mein Guroor sa khud par hota hai.. Medhavi Mohabbat phir karne ki na thhi aarzoo humko magar Tum aa khadde huye saamne meri zindagi ka maksad ban kar... Medhavi Jab teri maujoodgi mein bhi tanhaayi mehsoos hone lagi, hum samajh gaye ki ab hamari zarurat khatm ho gayi... Medhavi

Its crazy where your thoughts can take you.. innumerable places.. innumerable encounters.. innumerable experiences with just closed eyes or at times open too! You can think of a thing that happened day before or something that bothered you in your childhood, some thing that hurt you years ago or some thing that you are scared that would hurt you maybe tomorrow, some old incident that still makes you not just smile but laugh or an experience you have never had but are looking forward to so as to feel that happiness from your entire being...  This entire play of the mind and you makes you realise that the mind is not your slave but you are and as well said by a friend, if you can control your mind, you can do anything and everything.  Its difficult though, as when you start thinking, so many crazy things rush here and there.. they collide and confuse you, they sink in and hypnotise you. You think people play mind games with you, but that isn't true. Its you who allows yourself

Kahaani... Tujhe paane ki ummeed Chorr aaye ateet mein Tera haath chorr aaye Ajnabiyon ki bheed mein Tujhe sochna bandh bhi kiya Par khwaab aate rahe Taqdeer ka rukh mod bhi diya Par laut ke tum aate rahe Mulaaqaaton ka silsila dhundhlaane laga Par ehsaas phir bhi toota nahin Preet ka mausam murjhaane laga Par bahaar ki aas se rootha nahin Kuch adhoore kuch mukammal lafz Aur ek lambaa kaarwaan beete waqt ka Har roz kaanon mein cheekhte rahe Dhadkan par naam likh aaye teri sarhad ka Ab tu ho haasil ya ban jaaye mere ateet ka andhera Koi darr nahin Ab tu bhool jaaye Ya bhula de meri maujoodgi ka har ishaara Koi darr nahin Ki humne toh tere naam apni Har subha shaam likh di Mohabbat ki pehchaan de kar Zindagi tere naam likh di Medhavi

Mirrors... I was looking for myself and I bumped into you. I didn't get much time to look in those deep eyes or see that mesmerising smile of yours.. but could just see that we were so identical in supernatural or inexplicable ways. I realised that two mirrors broke and our pieces shattered on the ground. We left those broken pieces on the floor and started walking together. Everyday when we met, we felt an emptiness that we couldn't understand or accept.. those pieces were missing. They used to hurt us when we walked over them.. we used to bleed every time as we broke our own or each other's pieces. Those pieces were our innermost fears.. dreams.. values.. that we just left there.. abandoned. When we bumped into each other, we just noticed the pieces that got shattered, but not that we were just the same.. we were mirrors... mirror images of each other.. We had the same fears.. same insecurities.. same madness and same broken spirits. We then walked bac

Rona zaroori bhi hai Duniyaa saaf nazar aati hai Dard faraar ho jaata hai Aur neend ghar aa jaati hai Medhavi

Kho diya hai khud ko Tujhe dhundhte dhundhte Bhatak gayi hun kuch main Tera pata puchte puchte Jal gaye khwaab mere Tere khwaab poore karte karte Kuch chhil gayi ungliyaan Tera haath pakde pakde Kuch chhil gaye talve Tere saath chalte chalte Saare bandhan khud se hi todd aaye tere sahaare Tune bhi haath chhuddaa liya toh hum jaate kahan pe Kuch toot gaye hum kuch khwaabon ne jodd liya Kuch choott gaye bhram peeche ki haqeeqat ne jhanjhodd diya Kuch mar gaye kuch jee gaye Zeher jaan kar ishq pee gaye Phir hans bhi diye khud par Aur ro bhi liye akele... Medhavi 05-12-2015

A lonely night, And a novel beside, A half heart, Of reading it aloud. A playlist in my phone, That I dont play aloud, A broken heart, And a hope still in parts. Few dim lights in the room, The same dream in open eyes, A melted candle with past fumes, And the same truths, same lies. Film posters and a hundred pictures, On all the walls spread throughout, A million moments all around, And a lonely soul screaming so loud. Few frustrations and unanswered goodbyes, Echoing again in the mountains of sighs, Even truth now seems deceptive, And love now seems infective.  Good words now scare me to hell, Broken promises now force me to tell. The unsaid story, The unpaid attention, The incomplete tale, The unbound sail. And Im standing here, Abandoned.. rejected. The love and emotions, Unappreciated.. ejected. No hopes but dreams still persist, No trust but beliefs still exist, Me and my broken heart, Sing a song throughout the night. Love... o love.. will you ever be my destiny, Im so tired of

Kayi baar apne dard ki goonj se Apnon ko bachaana paddta hai Kyunki dard hota hai hamara apna Par dil unka bhi dukhaata hai... -Medhavi 29.11.15

Kuch ghum ki parchaayi tum par bhi paddi Hum par bhi paddi Kuch dard ki chingaariyaan tumhe bhi jala gayin Humein bhi sulgaa gayin Kuch ashqon ki nami ne tumhe bhi bhigaaya Humein bhi sataaya Sab dil mein utarte jazbaaton ko chhoot-te  tumne bhi dekha humne bhi dekha Sab bandhi ummeedon ko toot-te  Tumne bhi dekha, Humne bhi dekha... Bas fark itna raha Ki hamara saath na thha Koi aur hamare tha saath khadda Ek sa ghum Ek sa dard Ek sa dhokha Ek sa samjhauta Hum kar aaye khud se aur unse Aur phir hum tum miley bahut kismat se... Waqt laga khwaabon ko ek sa karne mein Waqt laga sawaalon ko sulajhne mein Aur ek din humko phir pyaar ho gaya Ek aadhe adhoore shaqs se Tum se...humko pyaar ho gaya... Ummeedein bandhti kaise Saari pehle se tooti thhi Neendein khwaabi hoti toh kaise Haqeeqat hi itni jhooti thhi... Phir bhi aitbaar karne lage hum Tumse pyaar karne lage hum Shaam savere tujhse juddne lage

Aadhi raat ko pyaar jataate hain Aur phir kahin aap gum ho jaate hain Kya daastaan sunaayenge aap humko Hum aapko aap hi ka afsaana sunaate hain Jab hote hain aap tanha Toh yaad hamari aati hai Warna maujoodgi bhi hamari Aapko choo kar guzar jaati hai Saath reh kar paas aa na sake aapke Kisi bhi Baat se dil chura na sake aapka Hum bhi haar gaye Hamara pyaar bhi haar gaya Aapke aage aitbaar bhi haar gaya Ab ummeed na karein Toh bhi takleef ho Ummeed baandh lein Toh dil ke nazdeek ho Phir dil dukhaaoge Ya humko aazmaaoge Hum toh yahin khadde rahenge Intezaar mein Kabhi pyaar ho jaaye tumhe bhi Toh bata dena Iss zindagi ka koi matlab Shaayad uss din humko bhi mil jaayega Medhavi 24.11.15

Neend ka pata uss waqt kho gaya Jab aankhein khul gayi aur Haqeeqat saamne aa gayi... Diya bujh gaya Andhera ho gaya Kehne ko thhi mohabbat ki parchaayi Ek jhonka sa sang laayi Zara si hawa chali Aur ek pal mein sab lutt gaya... Medhavi 24.11.15

Life gives you many reasons to break down.. When your friends betray you.. when your family discourages you.. when you fail an exam.. when you lose an asset.. when you lose a person.. when someone breaks your heart.. adding up to so many more reasons, life tries to knock you down. At times, it becomes difficult to find even one positive ray of light, one reason to survive, one single hope... you have friends, but you don't have the person you need to talk to.. you have an ambition, but so many influential people want you to choose a different path.. you have dreams, but you are forced to live them in slumber.. so many pressures, so many responsibilities, life has become like this or was always like that ? You get your lessons the harder way and believe that yes, now nobody can hurt you or fool you or play around, but again the similar or worse thing happens and you ask why ? you know.. somewhere you too know the answer, it is because god knew that you didn't learn

Hai koi itna apna aur phir bhi kitna begaana Kuch adhoora kuch mukkammal sa yeh afsaana Bujhaane ko shamaa ko haath jalaane bhi padde Barsaat mein phir apne kapde bhigaane bhi padde Bachaate aaye tujhe ghum ki parchaayiyon se bhi Aur chupke se kahin hum khud ko gawaate bhi rahe Jab laga ki mohabbat yeh meri jeet gayi Toh waffa ki bhi ummeed khokhli nikli Shikast mili bhi mujhko uss kinaare par Jahan ek ghar banaane ka khwaab maine dekha tha.... 19.11.15 Medhavi

Ho tum aadat ya mera junoon ho Dard ki wajah ya mera sukoon ho... Faasla chahti hun par judaayi se darti hun Khaamoshi chahti hun par tanhaayi se darti hun... Jaa rahe ho tum dooor mujhse Kuch yeh dil ghabraata bhi hai Aana hai laut kar paas mere hi Yeh khud ko dil samjhaata bhi hai... Kab bandh gayi dor yeh saanson ki tumse pata na chala Iss khayaal mein yeh dil waqt guzaarta bhi hai Tumhari kami khalegi yeh jaanta bhi hai Tumhari mohabbat saath rahegi yeh maanta bhi hai... Phir bhi dil karta hai tumhara haath pakad kar rok lun Tum ja na sako, koi bahaana bana ke rok dun Par kahin na kahin yeh bhi haqeeqat ke aayeene mein dikhta hai Ki dooori se jo beasar ho kuch aisa hamara rishta hai... Toh jaao mujhse dooor tumhe de di maine arzi Yaad karna mujhe ya bhool jaana tumhari marzi Bas itna rakhna khayaal ki koi hai tumhare intezaar mein kahin bahut dooor Jo har raat tumhara khwaab liye sota hai Jo tumhe yaad kar kar har dusre lamhe rota hai Aur koi jo tum

Zara dekh lo mudd ke humko bhi Hain ab bhi ek shaqs ya kharch hua waqt tumhara Kuch baaki hain aur kuch barbaad bhi hain Kuch besharam se ab bhi bache khwaab bhi hain Muskura rahe hain aise jaise kuch hua na ho Dard ne jaise kabhi iss dil ko chua na ho Ab nigaahon tak ki raah khushi ko yaad nahin Aage badhenge kal par aaj nahin Ho raha hai fanaa zarra zarra mohabaat ki aag mein Aur tum kehte ho ae dost ki tum humein yaad nahin... Medhavi 18.11.15

Hai bhi aur nahin bhi.. Woh hawa hai jo choomti hai Aur woh bhi hawa hai jo aandhi ban khanronchti hai... Woh adaa hai jo dil churaati hai Aur woh bhi adaa hai jo dil dukhaati hai... Woh dard hai jo aankhein bhar deta hai Aur woh bhi dard hai jo jism chheelta hai... Woh pyaar hai jo har khwaab sach kar deta hai Aur woh bhi pyaar hai jo har khwaab toddta hai... Woh izhaar hai jo choo jaata hai ek hi nazar mein Aur woh bhi izhaar hai jo bayaan ho kar bhi ankaha hai... Woh khushi hai jo aankhein nam kar deti hai Aur woh bhi khushi hai jo jaan le jaati hai... Haar woh bhi hai jo jeet se hai badhkar Aur haar woh bhi hai jo khatm kar deti hai ummeed ki seher... Woh yakeen hai jo ummeed deta hai Aur woh bhi yakeen hai jo baar baar toot ta hai... Hai kitna kuch ek sa Phir bhi wajood hain alag kyun Zindagi hai aazaad yeh Phir har modd par sarhad kyun... Jawaab agar hai har sawaal ka Toh phir talaash hai kis ki Khud par hai yakeen agar

Neend aayegi kaise, Khwaab se bhi ab darr lagta hai, Ek aayeena hai saamne bhi, Aur haqeeqat se bhi darr lagta hai... Jo baat kahi nahin kabhi, Uss baat ka afsos hai kyun, Lamha lamha kare bewaffai, Ae dil tu maayoos hai kyun... Naam tera hai saans saans par, Khushbu ka wajood liye ab bhi, Ab kya ummeed main rakhun, Bandh ho gaye darwaaze sabhi... Roshni ka suraag nahin, Andheron se ghabraata hai dil, Sab jaanta pehchaanta hai, Phir bhi kyun baaton mein aata hai dil... Phir aa gayi laut kar, Yeh lambi raat mere kareeb, Phir aa gayi kharonchne, Khayaalon ke woh zakhm... Apni hi neend ki fariyaad ab, Karne lage khuda se hum, Kuch armaan nahin waise, Kuch khaffa bhi khuda se hum... Uddne ka na socha thha kabhi, Zameen par paanv rakhe thhe, Na jaane kab meri zameen bhi, Meri hi parchaayi se paraayi ho gayi... Neend neend ka dosh hai saara, Tumhe chain ki, Mujhe naam ki, Tumhe khwaabon bhari, Meri khayaalon se dari dari si, Par ek sukoon

Dil itne zarron mein toot kar bikhar gaya, Pata sukoon ka aaj khud se kho gaya, Na jaane kab ab neend humko aayegi, Na jaane kaun si subha phir se jagmagaayegi... Be-kasoor thhe hum ya majboor thhe, Hum toh bas teri nigaahon ke nashe mein choor thhe, Tune jo raah dikhaayi, Hum aankhein moond chalte rahe, Tune aag di ya chingaari, Hum pal pal bas pighalte rahe, Aaj jab tera hi saath choot gaya, Laga jaise koi mere saamne mera sab loot gaya, Tere saamne khadde bas hum muskuraate rahe, Tujhko khabar bhi nahin kitna kuch mujhmein toot gaya... Medhavi 12.11.15

भागती  रही  बंजरों  की  ओॅर ,  बहार  की  उम्मीद  ले  कर , अंजान  हाकीकतों  से , ज़लजलों  की  भीड़  ले  कर ... टूट  गया  हर  भ्रम , एक  दफा  बस  टकराने  से , छू  गया  एहसास  फिर , बरसात  का  सेहराओं  से ... चुभने  लगी  हवायें , खारोंचने  लगे  उजाले , गम  की  परछाई  ले , फिर  हुए  दर्द  मेरे  हवाले ... खुद  को  झोंख  भी  डाला , फिर  भी  कुछ  ना  उसको  भाया , ज़िन्दगी  ने  फिर  झटके   से , मुझसे  हाथ  यूँ  चुडाया ... -मेधावी  12.11.15

Haar gayi hun khud se Apne hi hausalon se Katra katra jal gaya Zindagi lutt gayi katron se... Bikhre huye khwaab Be-matlab ke sawaal Sab judd gaye hadhon se Jhoothe se woh kisse kal ke... Kho diya hai khud ko Tujhe paane ki zid mein Dhundh rahi hun khushi Dard ke zariyon se... -Medhavi 12.11.15

The cold breeze was brushing her hair, while the strands were bothering her eyes filled with tears. She was sitting alone at a lonely terrace, looking beyond a place that maybe never existed. Recalling past episodes of her life, she was smiling, crying, advising and scolding herself. She had been a friend, in love with her bestie, she had been a stranger, in love with somebody's voice on the phone, she had been a stalker, for the guy with the cutest smile, she had been a poet, for someone she could never get. She had been so much, in search for love, she was hurt so many times, in all those trials. When she finally fell in love, with him, she thought it was end of the world. She was a giver since forever but she gave her own self, she gave up on her principles, on her dreams, and just decided to love him by all means. It was a pink rose colored spectacle through which she saw her dream life, everything beautiful, everything perfect. Somebody fell in love with her smile, with th

Yeh ashq ab aate jaate logon ka tamaasha ban gaye hain, Bas teri aankhon mein utarne ki inki aukaat nahin... Medhavi 05.11.15

Na jaane kahan daba sa thha, yeh zalzala, Hum mein kahan thhi himmat-e-waffa, Bas tere tasavvur mein duba kar palkein do pal, Meri nazar se sharm-o-haya ne vidaa le li... Saare khauff kahin ashqon mein, ghul se gaye, Saare haqeeqaton ke kaafile, dhul se gaye, Ki thaama khud ka haath tera maan kar, Kahe huye lafzon ko tere, Phir se kaanon mein pehne hadh se aage badh gaye... Ab aar ho ya paar ho, jo bhi anjaam ho, Ya chaahe waffa kar bhi hum badnaam hon, Todd di humne janzeerein, beddiyaan hijr ki, Ab tum saath dedoge, toh mar hi jaayenge... Medhavi 03.11.15

I know what you are saying is right. Good for you and me... but I know what is the best for us.. I know that the best maybe can never happen.. but I just know that I can spend my life with this bitter reality.. alone.. but not with anyone else. I don't know how I'd be able to do that.. how I'll get the strength to take that stand... but I know that wen I'll just close my eyes and think of you.. have all the strength.. I just know that you are worth the effort.. I just know that you are worth every sacrifice... Though its just a few months.. just a matter of a bunch of weeks.. but I won't say that we hardly know each other...because I have never known somebody so close.. i never shared this emotional intimacy with anyone.. I feel i know each bit of you.. each expression of you.. each mood of yours. You are not just an entity but an entire universe for me. I know, I'm saying big things.. and talking about things that just happen in story books and imagi

At times I think and think too deep, has god sent you to my life for a reason, or you were just a naughty soul which rolled towards mine due to gravity? At times I think and think too vague, we are so different, like poles apart, have we met to accomplish something together, like life on another planet or to learn the language of dolphins? At times I think and think too weird, you and I just met and clicked like a picture, but the negatives developed into something called love, but the pictures are still not in our hands...  we met, we laughed, we loved too much, are we destined? Are we one single soul? Are we meant to be? Things happened.. which were beautiful, things happened.. which were lame... love happened without a trace of knowledge n now we cant go back again... Medhavi 27.10.15

आज ना जाने क्यूँ फिर तेरी याद आ गयी, बे-वक़्त, बिन-बात के, बस यूँ ही, कमरे की धुंधली रोशनी में, बिस्तर पर लेटते हुए, कुछ भूली हुई रातें याद आ गयी. कुछ सोच कर हसी आ गयी, कुछ सोच कर रोना आ गया, याद आई वो रात जब फोन पर पहली बार इकरार हुआ था, वो रात जब मैं खुशी से पहली बार रोई थी और नम आँखों संग सो गयी थी. वो रात जब हमारी पहली लड़ाई हुई थी और रात तुम्हे मनाने में गुज़र गयी थी.  वो रात जब हम किसी बात पर इतना हँसे थे की रो पड़े थे, वो रात जब तुमने पहली बार अपनी तस्वीर मुझे भेजी थी, वो रात जब तुमने कहा तहा की मेरे बिना तुम कुछ भी नहीं और मैने साथ निभाने का वादा किया था. फिर वो रात याद आई जब यूँ ही फोन पर तुमने बिना कुछ समझाए मुझे छोड़ दिया था. वो रात जब सवालों की गूँज मुझे पागल कर देती थी. वो रात जब खुद को शांत करने के लिए खुद को सज़ा देने की आदत लग गयी थी. वो रात जब फिर नम आँखों संग सोई थी. वो रात जब खुद के हाथ पकड़कर भ्रम के ख्वाब संग सोना सीखा था. वो रात जब खुद के सामने जी भर कर रोना सीखा था.  आज भी उन रातों की थोड़ी हवा है मेरे कमरे में. कुछ उस वक़्त की खुश्बू, कुछ उस खुशी का नशा, कुछ उ

Waqt woh kitna haseen thha, Jab waffa ka yakeen thha, Un aankhon mein sirf mera suroor thha, Tumko paa kar har zarra maghroor thha, Na jaane woh hawa ka jhonkaa kab aaya, Kahin kho gaya woh zariya ibaadat ka, Benaam ho gayi saari kasmein, Beghar ho gaye saikaron lamhe, Shamaa jalti rahi, waqt pighalta raha, Ummeedon ka daayara, ghat-ta gaya, Ab bas kuch aadhi adhuri beeti baatein hain, Jo rooh ke darmiyaan kahin mehfooz hain, Aur aaj bhi har sheh par tera shukriya karne, Aur mohabbat tujhse karne mein, har zarra masroof hai... Medhavi 18.10.15

Sharaab se ab nasha nahin hota mujhko Tu tasavvur mein kuch is kadar rehta hai Ki kadam saath nahin dete kabhi kabhi Par tera khayaal har saans se yeh kehta hai Bhula do mujhe agar bhula sako Mitta do woh lamhe agar mitta sako Par hum rahenge yahin ghar basaa kar Khayaal khayaal par kabzaa kar Tadpaayenge bhi, sataayenge bhi Aur phir muskuraake naam tumhara pukaarenge Ki kya karein shikaayat unki khuda se Unki barbaad karne ki bhi adaa itni kaatilaana hai... Medhavi 18.10.15

Barbaad ho gaye unki mohabbat mein hum haste haste, unke bina mann lagna hi bhool gaya shaayad, jab haath mein unka haath nahin, raahon mein unka saath nahin, toh zindagi bhi kahan zindagi rahi, bandagi mein waffa kahan bandh saki, unko gale na laga sake toh sharaab gale se utaar li, barbaadiyon se dil ki zameen sawaar li, aur phir unke naam ek shaam haar di... Medhavi 18.10.15

I can't recall the moment I fell in love with you, I can't recollect the thoughts that ran within my mind in that moment. I can just smile and look above the sky and thank my stars, that just a moment came and blurred all scars.  The heartbreaks that broke my spirit don't mean a thing anymore, as with you I found myself and I became more sure. Sure of my dreams, desires and myself, you made my life like a dream come true and now every time I pray, your name echoes. I sleep and wake up with a smile, I talk in my dreams and dream all day long, You have made my life beautiful beyond imagination and your love has colored my soul beyond re-creation. Medhavi 16.10.15

Lonely or alone, In love or insane, The eyes smiled, And I said again... Love makes life live.. Medhavi 16.10.15 Between the nothings n maybes I found infinity ! - Medhavi 16.10.15

Shayad saanson ko wajood mil gaya tumse mil kar, ab tak toh aawaara si thhi manzilein, Shaksiyat badal gayi, rangat tum mein dhal gayi, khud ke zarre bachche hain ab mujhmein shayad gin ke... Medhavi 13.10.15 Khayaalon se sawaalon ki baat kuch yun chali, ki naksh - e - taqdeer par tera naam mera wajood ban gaya.. - Medhavi 16.10.15 Hun main khoobsurat Ya teri nazar ka kamaal hai Aaeena dekh mujhe kabhi Pehle aise sharmaata na tha... Medhavi 16.10.15 Kaid kar lo jazbaaton ko Kahin waqt ki dhool na jam jaaye Ki lautenge hum bhi phir Aur waqt bhi yeh phir laut ke aayega... Medhavi 18.10.15 Khud se lagaayi thhi shart humne Ab mohabbat mein waqt na gawaayenge, Bas ek raah badli, aur tumse takraa gaye, Dekho phir hum khud se haar gaye... Medhavi 02.11.15

Be it day or be it night She is there in dark and light I can still smell her around In silence and rooms full of sound... When I think about her I smile n smile n just cant stop When I think about her I cry n cry n regret so much I remember how all guys looked at her And how with pride I walked with her I remember how she held my arm She was my only lucky charm Her aura couldnt be defined under a range Her ways of taking life were strange... When I think about her I thank people around me Who serve, who work or help me When I think about her I talk to strangers around me No matter it makes no sense to me When I think about her I sing my heart out I eat my favorite food And wear my oldest tee shirt I do what I love n dnt care if people judge When I think about her I recall, how people envied me How they said they wished if they had her And I held her and told them, she just belonged to me When I think about her I miss her hair, cascading down lik

एक अधूरी सी मुलाकात थी,  वो एक लंबी सी रात थी, शमा पिघल रही थी, लम्हों की उम्र घट रही थी... कुछ फासला और थोड़ी नज़दीकी थी, साँसों की गुफ्तगू, थमा हुआ वक़्त, अनकही सी आरज़ू, ख्वाहिशें बे-हद... यूँ ही आँखों आँखों में, सहर ज़मीन पर उतर गयी, दबी दबी सी आहटें, लम्हों पर दस्तक फिर दे गयी... उस रात की शमा में, अब भी जलते हैं ख़यालों के परवाने, बुझ गये दिए बीते वक़्त के, फिर भी दोहराए यह फ़िज़ा वही अफ़साने... Medhavi 12.10.15

ना जाने कहाँ वो मोहब्बत, वो बेकरारी गुम हो गयी, जो हम तुम में एक सी थी, ना जाने 'हम', कब 'तू' और 'मैं' बन गये, ना जाने कब, यह फ़ासले आ गये, ना जाने क्यूँ, हर रंग फीका पड़ड़ने लगा, ना जाने क्यूँ, हर ख्वाब टूटने लगा, दूरियों की ज़रूरत क्यूँ हुमको लगने लगी, क्यूँ बातों को सबूतों की ज़रूरत पड़ने लगी. क्यूँ वो यकीन मिटने लगा, क्यूँ हर ज़ररा बिखरने लगा, क्यूँ वो नज़र बदलने लगी, क्यूँ आँखें यह भरने लगी, क्यूँ पास रहकर भी साथ का एहसास गुम होने लगा, क्यूँ तुमको छू कर भी, तुम तक ना पहुँचे, ऐसा लगने लगा, क्यूँ सारी कमियाँ अब दिखने लगी, क्यूँ दूरी की ज़रूरत पड़ने लगी. Medhavi 30.09.15

Forgive me, forgive me, He said again... Forgive the heartbreak, And all the pain... Forget that I forgot you for a while, Forget that I touched her just the way I touch you, Forget that I shared my breaths with hers, Forget that I left my smell in a few rooms of her... Forget that I shared myself with her, Forget that I forgot that you were away, Forget that I took you for granted and had no fears, Forget that I thought it was just another day... Forget that I did it after thinking twice, Forget that I thought of you but still couldn't fight, Forget that I wasn't weak but wanted it too, Forget that I kept aside my love for you... Forgive me for a transitory moment that ruptured your faith, Forgive me for reality that is heart wrenching but was just a phase... I kept quiet, the helplessness said it all, I sat aside, held myself and cried, I looked at him and asked him 'why me', He hugged me tight and begged, please dont leave me...

बे-मतलब सा रिश्ता कोई, बे-नाम भी, बदनाम भी, बिखरे हुए से किससे का वजूद लिए, फिरता है बेशरम सा सारे-आम भी... ना कोई राह, ना मंज़िल, बस गुज़रता सा काफिला, ना मोहब्बत कह पाए जिससे, यह है वो अधूरा सिलसिला... हम देते रहे जिसे इबादत का नाम हंस कर, उस डोर में एक पल भी वो बाँध ना सके, इश्क़ का रुतबा तो कब का हासिल कर चुके, बस इश्क़ कर के, इश्क़ का अंजाम ना पा सके... Medhavi

There's something about you, that I can't frame into words. The way you hold your own hand while sitting and holding your legs together... or the way you do your hair just after a bath... the way you look at yourself in the mirror... or the way you light a cigarette.. the way your morning voice sounds.. or the way you play your mouth organ..the way you smile or the way you sleep.. the way you wink or the way you grin.. the way you dance.. or the way you hold your glass.. the way you look.. or just the way you are...You don't realize how swiftly yet quickly you steal my heart every time with these little things.. I fall in love.. more and more.. deeper and deeper. You are beautiful in your own unimaginable n indescribable ways and I love every bit of you...

She is in a mess, a mess that she creates for herself, And she loves it ! Her depths are undefined, Her breaths too dream of him, The spirit of her love is so divine, That her leftover courage too calls his name. She is a lie, She is a truth, She writes poetry, She has a story, Mesmerizing yet a danger, Fictional and stranger, With every page a reality unfolds, Her life's tale is a story untold.

His honesty was heart-breaking at times. His words were true, his intentions were clean but his actions spoke differently. He said what he meant and he meant what he said. He loved me, he really did. But it was a pain to see him in the arms of another woman,  his hands under someone else's waist and another just barely touching me. I desired him to show her and others, that he loved me and they meant nothing, but he liked being shared, he liked being touched. He apologized later and told me it didn't involve a bit of his heart or soul, it was just momentary and I am permanent, but I got hurt. I felt lost and ignored, supressed and un-cherished, held but not loved. I wanted to cry, I wanted to scream, I wanted to push her away and tell her and the world that he's just mine and every bit of his belongs to me. I wasn't insecure, I wasn't possessive, I was just so scared that night. He looked at her the way he looked at me the first time we met. She wasn't pre

He was a mystery, the more I met him, the more I discovered new things  about him. His way of thinking with respect to different things varied so much from mine, but he still managed to reach a middle ground through his reasons and perceptions.  He was mature yet childish, because he changed colors like the different phases of the day. At times, he told me things that left me into a million dillemmas, of which the biggest was, why did I fall in love with someone like him, who has had such crazy encounters, experiences and stories in the past. I didn't think much, but just made myself re-understand the fact that I love him, no matter how his truths get uglier, layer by layer, because some realities were still pleasant. Like his love for me, the kisses that he planted on my forehead, his smile, his voice and what not.  I needed not just one reason to stay with him, because I had plenty. Because when I fell in love with him, I fell with each pore of his, each vein, each thought of h

There's something about today... Today is the day when I am planning tomorrow... leaving back yesterday and moving forward towards a new light.. an unexplored horizon. Things will get better. They will have to get better. Time will be respected. Relationships will be appreciated. At times.. the most difficult thing to do is to be a better person.. because it requires self-acceptance, self-belief and self-forgiveness. So, I am all set for the day.. and for life.. and for a time that has never been this much inspired and wanted. What about you ? 10.09.15 Everything is not black and white... but grey ! -Medhavi 11.09.15

मुलाक़ात वो पहली ना थी, पर अंदाज़ कुछ नये से थे, लफ़्ज़ों का खेल कुछ नया सा था, और साथ चलने का एहसास अनकहा सा था. ख्वाबों के झरोन्कों से निकल, वो सुबह फिर से आ गयी, कोई सरहद ना थी जिसकी, ऐसी रोशनी सी दिल पर छा गयी. बातें अधूरी रह गयी, काफिला आगे बढ़ गया, यूँ ही चलते चलते देखा, और समा कुछ यूँ बदल गया.

And there were some dreams I could never forget.. and eventually they became a part of me... I close my eyes and feel their being, standing before me as real as reality... No they aren't all good dreams, few are ugly too.. Some are broken and some are beautiful too.. They have their own way of completing me by leaving the stories untold, And keeping my heart bound and chaining my soul... Medhavi 01.09.15

I used to feel you slipping off my hands, inch by inch of you being assigned to her aura; but now things are changing. I can see you now, see you getting drawn to her, see your deep love for her, see your worried eyes, your concern.. Things are slipping from my hands and I stand here smiling, without an option apart from letting you go and hoping that maybe, maybe you will come back to me. I feel paralyzed at times, hopeless and lonely; but then I remember the good times with you, the laughters and the smiles, the day you knelt down before me and said 'I love you', the day you told me that you really wanted to marry me, the long walks, the meals together. But that all still doesn't change the feeling, that you are slipping and sliding slowly. She doesnt have to hold your hand, she doesnt need a committment to make you hers, your soul, your heart, your breaths, your thoughts, belong to her and call for her. When you are in deep slumber at nights, and I can't sleep

चाँद उस रात मुकम्मल सा था, पर उसकी उम्र कुछ और बची थी, कल रात भी वो मुकम्मल सा लगा, शायद बादलों की हल्की सी परत थी. कई सिरे धुंधले से थे, फिर भी चाँद  पूरा  था, कई दाग नये से थे, फिर भी पाक सा चाँद था. नयी ज़िंदगी शुरू होने को थी, बस कल के कुछ भटके बादल थे, उम्र चाँद की बढ़ाते हुए, बदलावों से घबराते हुए, समझौतों के आगे हारे से, बादल फिर छाए काले से. आज फिर वही चाँद था, कुछ मुकम्मल, कुछ अधूरा सा, कहने को नये दौर से गुज़रता, एक हसीन सा खुद का ख्वाब था, पर शायद वो चाँद, मेरे सारे सवालों का जवाब था. Medhavi Medz

मुलाक़ात वो पहली ना थी,  पर अंदाज़ कुछ नए से थे, लफ़्ज़ों का खेल कुछ नया सा था, और साथ चलने का एहसास अनकहा सा था. ख्वाबों के झरोन्कों से निकल, वो सुबह फिर से आ गयी, कोई सरहद ना थी जिसकी, ऐसी रोशनी सी दिल पर छा गयी. बातें अधूरी रह गयी, काफिला आगे बढ़ गया, यूँ ही चलते चलते देखा, और समा यूँ ही बदल गया.

His voice, his smell, his presence, Knocked the door again last night, I was lying on my bed and looking through, The dream, the imagination and the reality. He called my name again and again, He whispered then when I didnt react, I was listening to him through silences, Of the past, the present and the future. His essence traveled through my room, I could again smell his perfume, The smell that was a merger of the smell, Of his breath, his skin, his entire being. I could hear his footsteps, I could hear him talk, I could see his hands moving, And explaining me things, The things I want to forget, The things we never talked about, The things that are past, And shouldn't ever be told, His presence was a blend of his absence, His memory, his departure, his broken promises. Medhavi 21.08.15 ..................................................................................................................................................

You destroyed me in meaningful ways, The heartbreak didn't have a sound but it shattered, It shattered in a way that it broke my spirit, It shattered in a way that it's pieces still hurt... Love and dreams that meant so much, Just got lost within the echoes of despair, Commitment n honesty that lived in my blood, Just drained out through the million tears... The melancholy, the anguish, the loss, Brought me to a deserted island, Where the beautiful waves screamed silences, And the winds had just the past's fragrances... My body came back but the soul still rests there, The belief died, the faith died, Happiness became momentary, Pain became extra-ordinary, Smiles became fake, Hugs became mandatory... You transformed me into a person I never wanted to be, You transformed me in ways that you could never see, Love is now a far dream, you killed humanity... I never want to see you again, But hope to see you fall in love, So you understand

Kisson ki chaadar mein simta ek khoobsurat sa aashiyaan Jo adhoora sa basaaya kisi anjaan shaqs ne Aur ban gaya hamare ishq ki pehchaan... Kahaani shayad wahin se shuru huyi thhi Jab halki halki shaam dhal rahi thi Chaai ka woh cup ab bhi meri ungliyon ko garm kar deta hai Samaa uss shaam ka ab bhi mere lamhon mein rang bhar deta hai Aankhon aankhon ki baatein Kuch adhoori si mulaaqaatein Uss chaanv bhare manzar ne Na jaane kab de di itni saugaatein Woh jhuka hua sa ped Jo lagta thha toota sa Uss se woh raasta ab bhi nikalta hai Sannaatton mein goonjti aahaton mein se Ab bhi koi geet sa bajta hai Mor yun hi chalte huye unhi rangon mein kho jaate hain Aur un sannaatton mein kahin gum hum tum bhi ho jaate hain Baithhne ki jagah hamesha Wahan nam nam si rehti hai Kabhi oas kabhi baarish wajah Par waisi hi achchi lagti hai Har daffa kapde hamare Ab bhi geele ho jaate hain Aur hum phir hans kar khud par Apna hi mazaak banaate hain Na jaane kitne kisse, kitni

जो बद्रा कल रात गुज़र रहे थे, उनमें कुछ बूँदें, अब भी उस शाम की शामिल थी, जब ढलते दिन के साथ, कई ख्वाब मुककममल हो रहे थे. तुमने कलाई मेरी पकड़ ली थी, और बारिश की बूँदें हाथों से, वक़्त की तरह फिसल रही थी, आधे भीगे, आधे सूखे से हम, साथ चल रहे थे यूँ ही. वो बातें जो बेखुदी में डूबी हुई थी, वो बातें जो कुछ तेरी कुछ मेरी थी, वो बातें जो ख़त्म कभी हो ना सकी, उस शाम और रात के दरमियाँ कहीं, अपना वजूद हर ज़र्रे पर लिख गयी. शाम हल्के हल्के ढल रही थी, रात की करीबी बढ़ रही थी, हक़ीक़तें और तकदर्रों के काफिलों से, ज़िंदगी की लौ पिघल रही थी, उस रात में शामिल हमारी मौजूदगी, धीरे धीरे रंग बदल रही थी. गुज़र गयी वो शाम, वो रात, फिर भी कुछ बूँदें अब भी बाकी हैं, जो लम्हा कहीं सिंटा हुआ है उन राहों पर, उसका वजूद अब भी उन फ़िज़ाओं में बाकी है, कुछ ढलती रोशनी, कुछ गुज़रता वक़्त, कुछ हवा, और कुछ बूँदों की सरहद, अब भी शायद बद्रा में क़ैद है, जो गुज़रा नहीं शायद अब तक, वो लम्हा तेरा मेरा अब भी वहीं क़ैद है. मेधावी 17.08.15

वो वफ़ा वो दीवानगी, ना जाने कहाँ खो गयी, तुम्हारी निगाहों की मोहब्बत, ना जाने कैसे अंजान हो गयी. वो रातें जब नींदें लापता सी थी, वो मुलाक़ातें जो मोहब्बत की इंतेहाँ सी थी, ना जाने कहाँ गुम हो गयी परछाईयों में, क़ैद हो गयी जुदाई की हवा आज़ादीयों में. उन्हे ना-मौजूदगी अब हमारी खलती नहीं, मौसम-ए-रंगत बिन हमारे भी महफिलें सजाने लगा. शभ-ए-इत्मीनाम की वो सौगातें अब घर आती नहीं ख़यालों में उनके शायद कोई और घर बनाने लगा. किससे अब खुद को दोहराते नहीं दरीचे पर झोंके खुश्बुओं के आते नहीं बस चलती हैं हवायें सर्द सी मुस्कुराती हुई कुछ बातें दर्द की. वो पाक-पन, वो सादगी, जिसपर कायल थे वो कभी, वो दीवानगी, वो बेखुदी,  जो छाई रहती थी यूँ ही, ना जाने कहाँ खो गये सब निशान बेखुदी के, हम लौट आए वहीं जब हम अजनबी थे. Medhavi

A piece of us... A piece of me Would stay with you A piece of you Would stay with me... Few unsaid words Few wronged ideas Misunderstandings And departures... Touch of fingers While walking The little clasp of hand While dancing... Things that we talked about In sane state n when we were wasted Things that we laughed about At Humorous moments.. and at our own selves too... Being what we are with ease No boundations against the feel... The long days n longer nights The drenched roads and long drives The songs of connection The poems of dispair The moments now seem frozen Everywhere... You n I share a time That couldnt stop and couldnt move You n I share a dream That couldnt break and couldnt b real You n I sailing on our wrecked ships Dont expect the shore that soon You n I walking on a broken bridge Dont expect the road too smooth... A piece of me Would stay with you A piece of you Would stay with me...  A piece of love Wou

फिसल रहे थे लम्हे उंगलियों से, बे-इक्चतियार वक़्त की भी खता ना थी, दिल्लगी दिल्लगी में होने वाली कुछ बातें, मोहब्बत में ढल जाएँगी, यह बात हूमें पता ना थी, इंतेज़ार हर मंज़र का नूर बन जाएगा, जहाँ फेरें नज़र तेरा चेहरा नज़र आएगा, यह बात हूमें पता ना थी, अब वक़्त जो आया है जुड़ा होने का, सवाल भी काई हैं और बातें भी कई हैं, इतने लम्हे समेट तो लिए मुलाक़ातों के पर आँखों में खुशी के साथ नमी भी है. तुम्हे लौटने को कहूँ जल्द, या रोक लूँ अपने पास ही, तुम्हारा हाथ छोड़ना तो है, कम से कम क़ैद कर लूँ यह एहसास ही.

काफिलों में बँधी वो रात थी, ना जाने काब्से ख्वाबों में क़ैद एक मुलाक़ात थी, पल पल बढ़ती नज़दीकी, कितनी बातें अनकही सी, खुश्बू रागों में उतरती रही, बात कुछ आगे बढ़ती रही, कुछ अधूरे कुछ मुककममल, लफ़्ज़ों की आग सुलगती रही, कुछ शून्या कुछ अनगिनत से, एहसास अन-छुए से, कायानात में बिखरे हुए, ज़र्रे कुछ तेरे मेरे,  उस रात कुछ यूँ मिल गये, की सारी उलझने सिमट गयी फासलों की इंतेहाँ यूँ ही, लम्हों की दस्तक पे घट गयी.

He said 'I love you..' She was scared.. He said 'I will never make you regret this..' She gave her shivering hand in his.. He broke her heart.. She smiled and said 'This was meant to be' -Medhavi 29.07.15 The broken pieces of the old plastered walls were all over the edges of the bed and the floor.. And under the bed I found a hidden dream, a ring, a name and an incomplete desire ! -Medhavi 11.09.15 Kayi baar khaamoshiyon ko shor ki itni zaroorat paddti hai, Ki zarre zarre ki harkat mehsoos hoti hai... -Medhavi

जिया ना जाए बिन तेरे, कोई बहाना दे, टूट-ता है मुझसे एक एक पल तेरी याद का, कोई ठिकाना दे, मैं सरहदों में क़ैद हो कर रह गयी हूँ, एक आज़ाद लम्हा दे, गिलों को शिकवों को, कर दे पराया,  बस मुझे करीब रख, मिटा दे हर दायरा, इस रात को कर दे फ़ना, हर अधूरी बात आज पहुँचा दे मंज़िल तक, दिल से निकली जो सुन सदा, हर गम भुला दे आज, पहुँचा दे हूमें मंज़िल तक, तुम संग हो फिर भी क्यूँ यह एहसास है, तुमको और पाने की घड़दी अब भी दूर है शायद, तुम्हे देख देख वही एक बात है, तुमसे फिर मोहब्बत कर बैठे हैं शायद, तुम्हारी मुस्कान पर मिटने को जी चाहे, बिन तुम्हारे साँसें उखड़ती जायें, अब भी तुम्हे देख क्यूँ यकीन ना आए, तुम हो मेरे,हर पल यकीन दिलाए

खुशियों की तलाश ना करते थे हम, हमें तो एक पल के करार की जूसतजू थी, तुम मिले तो लम्हे थम से गए, ना जाने कब तुम हमारे बन से गए, ज़िंदगी के नगमों में तुम्हे ही गुनगुनाती हैं अब यह तनहाईयाँ, शभ के अंधेरोन में तुम्हे ही ढूँढती हैं यह वीरानियाँ, तुम यूँ ही एक पल आते हो, छू के गुज़र जाते हो हवा के झोंके की तरह, ना कुछ कहते हो, ना मुझे सुन पाते हो, एक एहसास दे जाते हो अपने जीने की वजह की तरह, तुम ना हो अपने, मगर अब पराया तुम्हे ना कह पाते हैं हम, तुम होते हो सामने, तो एक पल को भी ना नज़र फेर पाते हैं हम, प्यार हमारा तुम ना मंज़ूर भी कर दो तो कोई शिकायत नहीं, तुमने इनकार करने के लिए ही, हमें देखा तो सही. यह इरादा नहीं एक इलतेजान है तुमसे, की तुमसे है अब यह ज़िंदगी की साँसें बँधी सी हुई, ना आओ करीब हमारे अगर हसरत नहीं, मगर तुम मुस्कुराव क्यूंकी इससे में है हमारी खुशी, शिकवा करें या शुक्रिया, यह खुदा की ही एक मूरत है, यह तुम्हारी ही कोई अदा है सनम, मोहब्बत है या शिकवा, जो भी है खूबसूरत है. khushiyon