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A lonely night, And a novel beside, A half heart, Of reading it aloud. A playlist in my phone, That I dont play aloud, A broken heart, And a hope still in parts. Few dim lights in the room, The same dream in open eyes, A melted candle with past fumes, And the same truths, same lies. Film posters and a hundred pictures, On all the walls spread throughout, A million moments all around, And a lonely soul screaming so loud. Few frustrations and unanswered goodbyes, Echoing again in the mountains of sighs, Even truth now seems deceptive, And love now seems infective.  Good words now scare me to hell, Broken promises now force me to tell. The unsaid story, The unpaid attention, The incomplete tale, The unbound sail. And Im standing here, Abandoned.. rejected. The love and emotions, Unappreciated.. ejected. No hopes but dreams still persist, No trust but beliefs still exist, Me and my broken heart, Sing a song throughout the night. Love... o love.. will you ever be my destiny, Im so tire...

Kayi baar apne dard ki goonj se Apnon ko bachaana paddta hai Kyunki dard hota hai hamara apna Par dil unka bhi dukhaata hai... -Medhavi 29.11.15

Kuch ghum ki parchaayi tum par bhi paddi Hum par bhi paddi Kuch dard ki chingaariyaan tumhe bhi jala gayin Humein bhi sulgaa gayin Kuch ashqon ki nami ne tumhe bhi bhigaaya Humein bhi sataaya Sab dil mein utarte jazbaaton ko chhoot-te  tumne bhi dekha humne bhi dekha Sab bandhi ummeedon ko toot-te  Tumne bhi dekha, Humne bhi dekha... Bas fark itna raha Ki hamara saath na thha Koi aur hamare tha saath khadda Ek sa ghum Ek sa dard Ek sa dhokha Ek sa samjhauta Hum kar aaye khud se aur unse Aur phir hum tum miley bahut kismat se... Waqt laga khwaabon ko ek sa karne mein Waqt laga sawaalon ko sulajhne mein Aur ek din humko phir pyaar ho gaya Ek aadhe adhoore shaqs se Tum se...humko pyaar ho gaya... Ummeedein bandhti kaise Saari pehle se tooti thhi Neendein khwaabi hoti toh kaise Haqeeqat hi itni jhooti thhi... Phir bhi aitbaar karne lage hum Tumse pyaar karne lage hum Shaam savere tujhse juddn...

Aadhi raat ko pyaar jataate hain Aur phir kahin aap gum ho jaate hain Kya daastaan sunaayenge aap humko Hum aapko aap hi ka afsaana sunaate hain Jab hote hain aap tanha Toh yaad hamari aati hai Warna maujoodgi bhi hamari Aapko choo kar guzar jaati hai Saath reh kar paas aa na sake aapke Kisi bhi Baat se dil chura na sake aapka Hum bhi haar gaye Hamara pyaar bhi haar gaya Aapke aage aitbaar bhi haar gaya Ab ummeed na karein Toh bhi takleef ho Ummeed baandh lein Toh dil ke nazdeek ho Phir dil dukhaaoge Ya humko aazmaaoge Hum toh yahin khadde rahenge Intezaar mein Kabhi pyaar ho jaaye tumhe bhi Toh bata dena Iss zindagi ka koi matlab Shaayad uss din humko bhi mil jaayega Medhavi 24.11.15

Neend ka pata uss waqt kho gaya Jab aankhein khul gayi aur Haqeeqat saamne aa gayi... Diya bujh gaya Andhera ho gaya Kehne ko thhi mohabbat ki parchaayi Ek jhonka sa sang laayi Zara si hawa chali Aur ek pal mein sab lutt gaya... Medhavi 24.11.15

Life gives you many reasons to break down.. When your friends betray you.. when your family discourages you.. when you fail an exam.. when you lose an asset.. when you lose a person.. when someone breaks your heart.. adding up to so many more reasons, life tries to knock you down. At times, it becomes difficult to find even one positive ray of light, one reason to survive, one single hope... you have friends, but you don't have the person you need to talk to.. you have an ambition, but so many influential people want you to choose a different path.. you have dreams, but you are forced to live them in slumber.. so many pressures, so many responsibilities, life has become like this or was always like that ? You get your lessons the harder way and believe that yes, now nobody can hurt you or fool you or play around, but again the similar or worse thing happens and you ask why ? you know.. somewhere you too know the answer, it is because god knew that you didn't learn...

Hai koi itna apna aur phir bhi kitna begaana Kuch adhoora kuch mukkammal sa yeh afsaana Bujhaane ko shamaa ko haath jalaane bhi padde Barsaat mein phir apne kapde bhigaane bhi padde Bachaate aaye tujhe ghum ki parchaayiyon se bhi Aur chupke se kahin hum khud ko gawaate bhi rahe Jab laga ki mohabbat yeh meri jeet gayi Toh waffa ki bhi ummeed khokhli nikli Shikast mili bhi mujhko uss kinaare par Jahan ek ghar banaane ka khwaab maine dekha tha.... 19.11.15 Medhavi

Ho tum aadat ya mera junoon ho Dard ki wajah ya mera sukoon ho... Faasla chahti hun par judaayi se darti hun Khaamoshi chahti hun par tanhaayi se darti hun... Jaa rahe ho tum dooor mujhse Kuch yeh dil ghabraata bhi hai Aana hai laut kar paas mere hi Yeh khud ko dil samjhaata bhi hai... Kab bandh gayi dor yeh saanson ki tumse pata na chala Iss khayaal mein yeh dil waqt guzaarta bhi hai Tumhari kami khalegi yeh jaanta bhi hai Tumhari mohabbat saath rahegi yeh maanta bhi hai... Phir bhi dil karta hai tumhara haath pakad kar rok lun Tum ja na sako, koi bahaana bana ke rok dun Par kahin na kahin yeh bhi haqeeqat ke aayeene mein dikhta hai Ki dooori se jo beasar ho kuch aisa hamara rishta hai... Toh jaao mujhse dooor tumhe de di maine arzi Yaad karna mujhe ya bhool jaana tumhari marzi Bas itna rakhna khayaal ki koi hai tumhare intezaar mein kahin bahut dooor Jo har raat tumhara khwaab liye sota hai Jo tumhe yaad kar kar har dusre lamhe rota hai Aur koi jo tum...

Zara dekh lo mudd ke humko bhi Hain ab bhi ek shaqs ya kharch hua waqt tumhara Kuch baaki hain aur kuch barbaad bhi hain Kuch besharam se ab bhi bache khwaab bhi hain Muskura rahe hain aise jaise kuch hua na ho Dard ne jaise kabhi iss dil ko chua na ho Ab nigaahon tak ki raah khushi ko yaad nahin Aage badhenge kal par aaj nahin Ho raha hai fanaa zarra zarra mohabaat ki aag mein Aur tum kehte ho ae dost ki tum humein yaad nahin... Medhavi 18.11.15

Hai bhi aur nahin bhi.. Woh hawa hai jo choomti hai Aur woh bhi hawa hai jo aandhi ban khanronchti hai... Woh adaa hai jo dil churaati hai Aur woh bhi adaa hai jo dil dukhaati hai... Woh dard hai jo aankhein bhar deta hai Aur woh bhi dard hai jo jism chheelta hai... Woh pyaar hai jo har khwaab sach kar deta hai Aur woh bhi pyaar hai jo har khwaab toddta hai... Woh izhaar hai jo choo jaata hai ek hi nazar mein Aur woh bhi izhaar hai jo bayaan ho kar bhi ankaha hai... Woh khushi hai jo aankhein nam kar deti hai Aur woh bhi khushi hai jo jaan le jaati hai... Haar woh bhi hai jo jeet se hai badhkar Aur haar woh bhi hai jo khatm kar deti hai ummeed ki seher... Woh yakeen hai jo ummeed deta hai Aur woh bhi yakeen hai jo baar baar toot ta hai... Hai kitna kuch ek sa Phir bhi wajood hain alag kyun Zindagi hai aazaad yeh Phir har modd par sarhad kyun... Jawaab agar hai har sawaal ka Toh phir talaash hai kis ki Khud par hai yakeen agar ...

Neend aayegi kaise, Khwaab se bhi ab darr lagta hai, Ek aayeena hai saamne bhi, Aur haqeeqat se bhi darr lagta hai... Jo baat kahi nahin kabhi, Uss baat ka afsos hai kyun, Lamha lamha kare bewaffai, Ae dil tu maayoos hai kyun... Naam tera hai saans saans par, Khushbu ka wajood liye ab bhi, Ab kya ummeed main rakhun, Bandh ho gaye darwaaze sabhi... Roshni ka suraag nahin, Andheron se ghabraata hai dil, Sab jaanta pehchaanta hai, Phir bhi kyun baaton mein aata hai dil... Phir aa gayi laut kar, Yeh lambi raat mere kareeb, Phir aa gayi kharonchne, Khayaalon ke woh zakhm... Apni hi neend ki fariyaad ab, Karne lage khuda se hum, Kuch armaan nahin waise, Kuch khaffa bhi khuda se hum... Uddne ka na socha thha kabhi, Zameen par paanv rakhe thhe, Na jaane kab meri zameen bhi, Meri hi parchaayi se paraayi ho gayi... Neend neend ka dosh hai saara, Tumhe chain ki, Mujhe naam ki, Tumhe khwaabon bhari, Meri khayaalon se dari dari si, Par ek sukoon ...

Dil itne zarron mein toot kar bikhar gaya, Pata sukoon ka aaj khud se kho gaya, Na jaane kab ab neend humko aayegi, Na jaane kaun si subha phir se jagmagaayegi... Be-kasoor thhe hum ya majboor thhe, Hum toh bas teri nigaahon ke nashe mein choor thhe, Tune jo raah dikhaayi, Hum aankhein moond chalte rahe, Tune aag di ya chingaari, Hum pal pal bas pighalte rahe, Aaj jab tera hi saath choot gaya, Laga jaise koi mere saamne mera sab loot gaya, Tere saamne khadde bas hum muskuraate rahe, Tujhko khabar bhi nahin kitna kuch mujhmein toot gaya... Medhavi 12.11.15

भागती  रही  बंजरों  की  ओॅर ,  बहार  की  उम्मीद  ले  कर , अंजान  हाकीकतों  से , ज़लजलों  की  भीड़  ले  कर ... टूट  गया  हर  भ्रम , एक  दफा  बस  टकराने  से , छू  गया  एहसास  फिर , बरसात  का  सेहराओं  से ... चुभने  लगी  हवायें , खारोंचने  लगे  उजाले , गम  की  परछाई  ले , फिर  हुए  दर्द  मेरे  हवाले ... खुद  को  झोंख  भी  डाला , फिर  भी  कुछ  ना  उसको  भाया , ज़िन्दगी  ने  फिर  झटके   से , मुझसे  हाथ  यूँ  चुडाया ... -मेधावी  12.11.15

Haar gayi hun khud se Apne hi hausalon se Katra katra jal gaya Zindagi lutt gayi katron se... Bikhre huye khwaab Be-matlab ke sawaal Sab judd gaye hadhon se Jhoothe se woh kisse kal ke... Kho diya hai khud ko Tujhe paane ki zid mein Dhundh rahi hun khushi Dard ke zariyon se... -Medhavi 12.11.15

The cold breeze was brushing her hair, while the strands were bothering her eyes filled with tears. She was sitting alone at a lonely terrace, looking beyond a place that maybe never existed. Recalling past episodes of her life, she was smiling, crying, advising and scolding herself. She had been a friend, in love with her bestie, she had been a stranger, in love with somebody's voice on the phone, she had been a stalker, for the guy with the cutest smile, she had been a poet, for someone she could never get. She had been so much, in search for love, she was hurt so many times, in all those trials. When she finally fell in love, with him, she thought it was end of the world. She was a giver since forever but she gave her own self, she gave up on her principles, on her dreams, and just decided to love him by all means. It was a pink rose colored spectacle through which she saw her dream life, everything beautiful, everything perfect. Somebody fell in love with her smile, with th...

Yeh ashq ab aate jaate logon ka tamaasha ban gaye hain, Bas teri aankhon mein utarne ki inki aukaat nahin... Medhavi 05.11.15

Na jaane kahan daba sa thha, yeh zalzala, Hum mein kahan thhi himmat-e-waffa, Bas tere tasavvur mein duba kar palkein do pal, Meri nazar se sharm-o-haya ne vidaa le li... Saare khauff kahin ashqon mein, ghul se gaye, Saare haqeeqaton ke kaafile, dhul se gaye, Ki thaama khud ka haath tera maan kar, Kahe huye lafzon ko tere, Phir se kaanon mein pehne hadh se aage badh gaye... Ab aar ho ya paar ho, jo bhi anjaam ho, Ya chaahe waffa kar bhi hum badnaam hon, Todd di humne janzeerein, beddiyaan hijr ki, Ab tum saath dedoge, toh mar hi jaayenge... Medhavi 03.11.15

I know what you are saying is right. Good for you and me... but I know what is the best for us.. I know that the best maybe can never happen.. but I just know that I can spend my life with this bitter reality.. alone.. but not with anyone else. I don't know how I'd be able to do that.. how I'll get the strength to take that stand... but I know that wen I'll just close my eyes and think of you.. have all the strength.. I just know that you are worth the effort.. I just know that you are worth every sacrifice... Though its just a few months.. just a matter of a bunch of weeks.. but I won't say that we hardly know each other...because I have never known somebody so close.. i never shared this emotional intimacy with anyone.. I feel i know each bit of you.. each expression of you.. each mood of yours. You are not just an entity but an entire universe for me. I know, I'm saying big things.. and talking about things that just happen in story books and imagi...