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🤗|He was like a dream...|

It was a deep slumber and I didn't want to wake up. Reality peeped in through my eyelashes but I never cared. He was like the ocean and I was like a raindrop. He existed since forever and my identity seemed occasional. When we met, I just got immersed and lost into him, just like my elementary existence. He was always the mightier one and I was just there like another drop in the ocean. His smile was like waves that disturbed every molecule of my structure. His laughter was like lightening in the tides and his voice was like the slightest sound of the waves touching each other. Everything about him was perfect for me. Everything about him was just remarkably rare. His honesty was like salt in the ocean, his skin was like wet sand, his lips were like something I can't put into words. His entire existence was miraculous. I used to ask myself if he actually existed.. I also touched him at times with my fingers to assure. He was beautifully handcrafted by the alm...

The relationship with music is just about selflessness

It was present around me all the time in some or the other form, since I took my first breath. Neither love, nor affection could ever be that faithful and consistent as it was - Music ! The first letters I spoke were not spoken but sung by me as they were musical notes and the first sentence that I made was nothing with respect to my family or vocabulary but a song that was too popular then. I grew up listening and observing music through the era when music was expensive and a little out of reach especially for children. I remember I got my first cassette as my birthday gift from my brother when I was in class 6th and it was such a delightful moment. Collecting cassettes and recording songs from radio to blank cassettes was my favorite hobby. I had built up my own archive of music. Soon the DVD age followed by the personal computer hard drives, pen drives and eventually external hard drives which made music such a mobile entity. At present its as easy as giving something to ...

I waited...

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I waited for the day When you'd miss me too When you'll smile back The way you did before... I waited for the day When you'll call me with the intention To be for a little longer with me And be the way you were fond of me... I waited for the day When you give me that time Which was just mine and nobody else's When you gave me those rights Which were just mine and nobody else's... I waited for the day I can come to your room Without knocking the door And telling 'its me' The way I just came in I never had to ask before... I waited for the day You break the silence That built up between us Like a fleeting sheet... I waited for the day You clear the menace Of thoughts that bothered me And maybe a little you too... I waited for the day When you'll ask me again For a cup of tea at midnight When we'll just not talk But enjoy the beautiful silence... I waited for a thousand minutes I waited for a hundred ho...

🤗|शमा पिघल रही थी|

शमा पिघल रही थी, रैना ढल रही थी, कोहरा बढ़ रहा था, किस्सा पलट रहा था, तुम आगे बढ़ रहे थे, मैं पीछे हट रही थी, मोहब्बत प्यासी हो रही थी, दस्तकें अनदेखी हो रही थी. खिड़की पर तुम्हारी नज़र बुझ रही थी, नींदों में कहीं कोई ज़िंदगी उतार रही थी, गर्माहटें शमा की मुझमें अंधेरा कर रही थी, अतीत की आवाज़ें फिर से ज़हेन में गूँज रही थी. शमा पिघल रही थी, रैना ढल रही थी, कोहरा बढ़ रहा था, किस्सा पलट रहा था, तुम आगे बढ़ रहे थे, मैं पीछे हट रही थी. तुम होश में तहे शायद, मैं तुम में गुमशुदा थी, तुम मुझमें समा रहे थे, पर मैं तुमसे बहुत जुड़ा थी, रंग मोहब्बत ए वफ़ा का रूमा था, और हर इरादा बदगुमा था, हदें आगे बढ़ रही थी, किस्सा और हसीन हो रहा था.

🤗|सिमट के रह जाता वो लम्हा ए उलफत|

सिमट के रह जाता वो लम्हा ए उलफत, जो तेरी बाहों में बिखर कर भी महफूज़ था, मेरी मात पर बरस पड़ा वो बादल भी, जो ना जाने कितने अर्सों से सेहरा में मसरूफ़ था. करना चाहा हासिल जिस तक़दीर को, उसमें तेरे नाम का ज़ररा नामुमकिन था, मैने सजदे में तेरे सर झुकाया था, फिर भी तेरे यकीन को मेरा यकीन नहीं था. मेधावी 27.10.14

You were never mine

We were destined to be apart You were never mine I was never meant to be your girl... We knew the realities.. the flaws There was no time If it was supposed to stay, it would've hurt... You smiled at me and my mornings were bright You held my hand and I could face the world You dont know what difference you made to me You just came.. stayed and went away... Its not that you were the first one Who broke my heart n made me cry I've become so used to pain that now it bothers me if its not with me You came n changed my life again then changed in a fraction of second.. I wont complain, I never did But I will just close the doors The doors that let you in my soul The doors that I opened again with faith... You wont realize the loss that happened to me You wont realize the emptiness There are many to replace me though But for me you were just the one... It gives me warmth to still see you smile At...

Para "Trust me", he said

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A cold December morning it was, just eleven days to the new years. The metro station was foggy even till the first floor and the rickshaw pullers downstairs were all wrapped up in woolen sheets. The usual routine was followed and I was heading towards your place, shivering in cold, rubbing my hands against each other, wrapping under my own self and just waiting to see you soon. I was in middle of paying the rickshaw puller when your text just brought a smile on my face "Can't wait to see you". As you opened the door, you held me n pulled me in, wrapped me in your arms n blindfolded me. I was smiling and wondering the state of your mind but just stood there still in patience as I did'nt want the surprise to fade. You opened my eyes after a while and all I could see was heaven. Rose petals throughout my way n even through the spiral stairs. My favorite chocolate in every alternate step and a love note on the rest, I could certainly hear my heartbeats so loud that thi...

🤗|बहुत खूबसूरत है बेरूख़ी तुम्हारी|

बहुत खूबसूरत है बेरूख़ी तुम्हारी, कुछ अदा और कुछ सज़ा सी, कुछ महफूज़ कुछ बदगुमा सी, कुछ सुलझी कुछ उलझनों सी, कुछ धुंधले मौसमों सी. ज़रा बरसती है, ज़रा पिघलती है, बेरूख़ी तुम्हारी, कितने सितम करती है रातों में यह जुगनू बन चमकती है, पास आने पर कुछ और फासला बढ़ाती है. है तुम्हारी बेरूख़ी में ही इतनी अदायें, तुम पर लिखूँगी अगर तो नज़्म-ए लाखों बनेंगी, पर यह बेरूख़ी का फासला रहने देना दरमियाँ तुम, नहीं तो ना जाने कितनी घज़लें अधूरी रह जाएँगी. Medhavi 25.10.14

A special piece for my guy friends !! Love you all !!

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I couldn't have smiled this much recalling my childhood if I didn't have you guys in it. Life changed a lot through these years.. something or the other transformed hugely in every five years but one thing that couldn't just change n remained in its engraved permanent form was the friendship we share. We never had this big gang or friends from other sections of our batch even as we were always enough for each other. I remember being the secret box of you all n keeping all things in my deepest corner of memory n never talking about it, but it was funny to know the same stories from each of you with the same directions of not sharing it anyone else. As far as I can analyze from the past.. I can say one thing for sure that for you guys I was never a girl but just one of you. I was always given the respect n love a girl deserves to get but I was also slapped on the face.. (Rahul).. hit on the face by a football.. (Omesh) treated like a back up for passing exams.. (Ja...

My love held no boundaries...*

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My love held no boundaries, It was too unconditional to handle, It just knew the basicalities of belonging, My belonging that I destined myself to your life... You never made a promise, You never dreamt of me, You never felt my absence, You never recalled me... You never looked back, You never understood, You never loved the way I did, You just never could... You labelled me as someone, Who I couldn't be and never was You judged me in someway Insanely false which was... You inappropriated my love's courage. You made my love feel impure. You joked about it like another story, But just did something obscure... Medhavi 22.10.14

🤗Heart-aches don't kill you..*

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Heart-aches don't kill you They eventually make you stronger You may not smile with the eyes And this pain may last longer... Every time you will cross the common path The pain may scratch even more Every time you will listen to your heart You may be misguided even more... Smile away the hardest times The best revenge is happiness No matter how unreal it is People just see the outer layers... Let positivism shimmer on your life Delete people before they delete you Let anguish fade away like a lie Smile at those who intend to hurt you... -Medhavi 21.10.14

darkest night through the brightest day...

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I have had enough I have faced enough My heart doesnt ache anymore.. I have cried enough I have shared enough I dont want incomplete people anymore... I have made mistakes I have kept myself at stake And loved like in fairy tales... I have been fooled I have been ruled And abandoned like a toy... I have grown my own strength And that to an infinite length I dont shed any more tears People come.. connect n go At times just pretend and show But now they are not my fear... Iv understood my worth I love myself now Iv wasted enough of my life In holding on to people And giving them the place they never deserved.... Now I dont let my heart speak I trust my instincts n brain The pain the anguish has reached its peak I dont count over people who are lame... I want to look beyond the imperfections of my life I want to overlook the mistakes i made with respect to my hearts say I want to just look at everyone and smile like all is well I just want ...

🤗|Please don't go...|

And the smile just changed that day It could'nt sink in her eyes Her deep eyes filled with gloom Her deep eyes filled with despair I couldnt decode her state of mind Till yesterday she was just fine But something struck her in someway Something she didnt wanted to be asked about Her deep eyes talked a million things before Her deep eyes stalked my entire soul before But she was so quiet n lost that day She smiled n laughed but not the same way I wanted to recall if I did something wrong But I was sure that I never hurt her She was behaving differently and a little cold Her deep eyes had fire and tears at the same time Her deep eyes were burning n melting at the same time She didnt say a word throughout my stay It was just another silent conversation in our way I dont know if she will be back in her form I dont know if I will be able to see her again for this long She may part ways.. she may stay the same She may smile t...

👤|आख़िरी मौका|

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बड्डी फ़ुर्सत से बेरूख़ी का अफ़साना बनाया होगा, एक एक लम्हा तोड़ तुमने मुझको भुलाया होगा, एक दफ़ा मूड के तुम देख लेते, हम थे वहीं जहाँ राह तकने को कहा था, एक दफ़ा बस टूट-ती हिम्मत को समेट लेते, शायद वो हमारे मिलने का आख़िरी मौका था. Medhavi 20.10.14

❓Fractions..*

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'Fractions of seconds' as people frame it.. I frame it a little differently.. 'Fraction of life' it seems at times when people change in the blink of an eye.. You can't extinguish.. you can't ignite.. Its a dilemma that you just can't fight.. They smile at you but don't look in the eye.. They look in the eye but just can't simplify.. The deep thoughts sinking through their minds.. Crossing your thoughts and the restricted lines.. Our voice now doesn't echo in their hearts as before.. The sea shells just seem as if they drowned on the shore.. Fractions of seconds transform your life forever.. Fractions of lives you live in just a moment like another.. Lose faith n gain strength.. People here are not with you till the end.. Smile n welcome them n let them play their role.. In the end.. its just you n your soul.. Medhavi 19.10.14

🤗|मुसाफिर|

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सरहदों पर मेरे दिल की वो नाम अपना लिख गया, अब मुसाफिर कोई घर बसाए भी तो कैसे. Medhavi 02.08.14

🤗|अनदेखे पंख हवा के|

अनदेखे पंख हवा के, तेरी ओर उड़ा ले गये ख़याल मेरे, तूने मूड़ क ना देखा कभी, अब भी देख रहे हैं राह सवाल मेरे. Medhavi 02.08.14

🤗|अतीत की सुनसान सड़कों से|

अतीत की सुनसान सड़कों से, आवाज़ कोई आई थी, मैने समझा साया जिसको, वो कल की ही परछाई थी. पीछा किया जिस आवाज़ ने मेरा, सदाओं में जिसकी गूँज थी, मैने समझा दायरा जिसको, वो तेरी ही तो रूह ही. नीलाम हुई मेरी नींदें, जिस कटघरे में खड़े यह ख्वाब थे, मैने समझा नामुमकिन जिसको, वो तेरी मौजूदगी के एहसास थे. इंतेहाँ थी जिस इंतेज़्ज़ार की, जिस लम्हे की आज़माइश थी, तूने शायद अनदेखा कर दिया, पर इस दिल को तेरी ही ख्वाहिश थी. मेधावी 28.08.14

🫧वो गुलाबी बातें हैं बाकी

गुलाबी पानी के छींट्टों में, दबे हुए वक़्त के कंकद्दों की परछाई, ज़रा झाँके मुझको डूबी हुई उनमें, तेरी आँखों की गहराई. तेरे दुपट्टे से फिसलती हुई, वो गुलाबी बूँदें, हवा में कहीं गुम सी होती, वो शराबी बूँदें. कुछ कर्कश कुछ रेशम सी, कुछ स्पर्श से महसूस होती, वो महताबी बूँदें. ज़मीन पर बिसरा सा लम्हा, कुछ गुलाबी कुछ फीका सा, जो सींटे ना सिमट सका तब, अब भी गुलाबी है ज़रा सा. गुज़र गये हैं अब अर्सों, तुम्हे देखे गुज़रे बरसों, पर अब भी छत के उस कोने में, बँध मन के दरवाज़ों में, वो गुलाबी यादें हैं बाकी, वो गुलाबी बातें हैं बाकी. मेधावी 29.08.14

🤗|यूँ ही लिखता होगा|

छुप छुप के मुझे तू, आज भी देखता होगा, गुज़रे कल की लपटों में, ख़यालों को सेंकता होगा. मेरा नाम तक दोहराने से डरता होगा, फिर भी हथेली पर यूँ ही लिखता होगा. जिन भूली बिसरी गलियों से गुज़रे थे हम, उनमें घुली खुश्बुएं क़ैद करता होगा, लफ़्ज़ों के ज़रिए ज़हेन के काग़ज़ पर, सौ इलतेजायें मेरी लिखता होगा. हर पहेर में मेरी मौजूदगी को तरसता होगा, घम का यह बादल हर दिन बरसता होगा, फिर भी इस चाहत का कोई मुकाम ना मिलता होगा, बस तेरे ख़यालों का एक पघाम यह दिल लिखता होगा. Medhavi 03.09.14

🤗|मेरी झूठी तस्सल्लियों को यूँ मिटाना ना|

शिद्दत-ए-इंतेज़ार की हद ना जाने कब होगी, उम्मीद की इस सहर की शभ ना जाने कब होगी, लौटेंगे तेरे कदम क्या कभी मेरे दर पे, या तेरे क़िस्सों की ही चादर मेरी सरहद होगी. यह रात यह चाँद गवाह हैं मेरी इबादत के, यह राह यह आसरा गवाह हैं मेरी चाहत के, तू ना लौट सके भी तो बताना ना, मेरी झूठी तस्सल्लियों को यूँ मिटाना ना, की आदतें हो चली हैं तन्हाइयों की, तेरी दी हुई दर्द भारी रुसवाईयों की की अब कोई फूल भी दे तो दिल घबराता है, कहीं कलियों में भी कोई काँटा ना मिल जाए. Medhavi 19.09.14

🤗|I could'nt sleep that night...*|

Your trembling fingers holding mine, And your eyes just mesmerising as you... Your frequent gazes at me that didn't fade, And I couldn't help but just stare at you... Engraving your face deep in my soul, Shivering a little, then moving ahead, You landed in through the walls of my heart, There was no acceptance as everything was unsaid... It was 3 a.m and I was getting late, The moon by then had taken up a new shape, Your eyes held me deeply like never before, My heart was ready to fall as with u, i was sure... You were just so magical, That u reached those corners of my thoughts, Which were deep n unexplored, I wouldnt say dont go n stay Coz I will love you in anyway Medhavi 03.10.14

|वो रोज़ रोज़ यह कहता है|

इश्क़ ना करना मुझसे, वो रोज़ रोज़ यह कहता है, फिर खुद ही आँखों क ज़रिए, इस दिल में मेरे वो उतरता है. हाथ पकड़ वो मेरा, बस देखा मुझको करता है, फिर शाम सवेरे यूँ ही, मेरे साथ वो हर पल रहता है. कैसे ना करूँ मैं इश्क़ उस से, उसकी मौजूदगी का नशा सा होने लगा है, कैसे ना करूँ मैं इश्क़ उस से, हर ज़ररा उसमें ही खोने लगा है. वो छुए बिना क्यूँ मेरे ज़हेन को छू जाता है, छू ले अगर वो मुझको तो क्यूँ हर कटरा मेरा शरमाता है, ऐसी ना मैं तही जो वो मुझे बनाने लगा, बिन जाने यूँ ही बस मेरा इश्क़ आज़माने लगा. इश्क़ ना करना मुझसे, वो रोज़ रोज़ यह कहता है, पास रहना पर दिल ना लगाना, वो रोज़ रोज़ यह कहता है. ना जानू मैं भी किसी मंज़िल पर जुड़ेंगे रास्ते हमारे, पर इश्क़ तो हो ही जाएगा मुझे, उसके दिल की नहीं खबर मुझको, पर मोड़ कोई तो आएगा, जब शायद वो कह जाएगा, जो ना कह सके हम अब तक, मंज़िल कोई मिल जाएगी उस लम्हे तक. मेधावी 03.10.14

🤗|तुमको पाने की चाह आती है अब|

खुद की शर्तें तोड़ हम, तुझसे दिल लगाने लगे, इकरार तक हुआ नहीं, और रिश्ता निभाने लगे. कोई मंज़िल नहीं कोई राह नहीं, फिर भी चलने लगे साथ तेरे, तूने कभी कहा भी नहीं, पर समझने लगे हालात तेरे. खुद को तेरे काबिल समझुन, अब तक वो लम्हा आया नहीं, तुझको मैं अपना हासिल समझुन, अब तक वो लम्हा आया नहीं. बस यूँ ही दिल ने कहा, तुम तक हर राह जाती है अब, यूँ ही मुस्कुराते हुए, तुमको पाने की चाह आती है अब.

🤗|सुना है रूहों की कोई उम्र नहीं होती|

सुना है रूहों की कोई उम्र नहीं होती, मेरी मोहब्बत का वजूद भी रूहों सा ही है, जो तुम में समा गयी है कुछ इस हद तक, की सरहदें खुद की इस दिल की तुम्हारे दायरे में हैं. Medhavi Oct 2014

🤗|तक़दीर का फ़ैसला हो तुम|

तक़दीर का फ़ैसला हो तुम, ज़िंदगी का हौसला हो तुम, रूह की गहराइयों में तुम समाए हो, सरहदों को मनमरीज़ियों से पार करके आए हो, शामिल-ए-घम और सबब की शर्तें हम भी हार दें, पर कहे यह दिल कम्बख़्त की क्यूँ ना राह में तेरी ज़िंदगी गुज़ार दें, तू ना कहे या हान, तेरी मोहब्बत क्या एक ख्वाब ही तो है, तू हंस दे या समझे, तेरी मर्ज़ी क्या एक जवाब ही तो है, खोना ना हमसे तुम की तुम हो कुछ यूँ अनमोल, हर ख्वाहिश खाली आगे तुम्हारे, तुम हो तो सब है क़ुबूल. Medhavi Oct 2014

👤|तुम टूट रहे हो मेरी तक़दीर से|

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तुम टूट रहे हो मेरी तक़दीर से, या यह डोर हमेशा से ही कच्ची थी, क्यूँ बाँधने दिया मैने खुद को मोहब्बत की ज़ंजीर से, मैं तो बेपरवाह ही अच्छी थी.     Medhavi - 17th Oct'14

🎈|sometimes... |

Sometimes in life, you meet people who are of this sugar-coated dreamy kind of genre.. you want to touch them, they disappear.. you want to go away, they reappear.. you want to get attached, u encounter reality, you want to cut off completely, u encounter ignorance, you want to build castles, they hit you with a brick, you become rock solid, they treat you like a feather, you finally recollect things n clear your mind, N they ring the bell again to confuse you, you then smile at yourself for being so tender at heart,  n curse youself as you knew things from the start, But you still got yourself blindfolded n fooled, and let your emotions get misused.. Thats how these creatures are.. dreamy.. beautiful n deadly !! - Medhavi 15-10-14