lied

He again lied to her about 'her' call
He had saved 'her' number with a different name
She believed him and chose to fall
Blindfolded she was and got fooled again

She saw him sharing glances with 'her' 
In a crowded corridor she could catch their gaze
But he looked at her just the way he did 
And she gave up finding the way out from this maze

He used to go to meet 'her' in her absence 
She was somewhere alone lost in his thoughts 
But he never cared and kept testing her patience
And kept doing what he should have not

They were an example for everyone around 
But nobody could see the cracks in perfection 
Her heart kept breaking without a sound
And she kept on covering the cracks with her tears

He said he didn't love her and needed more time 
She said 'yes' like every other time
He smiled at her and gave her hopes again
But she had no idea about the actual decision he took for them

Her fears were the same 
Her insecurities were alike
His lies never stopped, but her love was brave, 
She hoped and hoped till he ruined her faith, 
She found herself somewhere where she couldn't be saved

She caught him again and this time he was with 'her' 
Looking in her eye and caressing 'her'
Smiled and said, yes that is the way it is, 
It is your fault that you didn't give up on me, on us, 
She froze in shock and despair, 
She had nowhere to go and her breath almost stopped, 
He walked past her holding 'her' hand
And there she was standing alone with tearful eyes

She cried and cried for nights, days and months 
Saw them every day, together, like nothing happened
Her heart broke, but her soul was intact
She got up on her feet and again fought 
Fought from herself, fought from a million questions
Fought with the people around who called her a fool
Fought with the wrong ideas and impressions
Fixed up her life and herself without any tool

Now she's fine, just fine 
Phases have passed but not that time
He still is her favorite dream and nightmare
He still is her best memory and worst mistake
She still sees him with 'her' 
But doesn't look away but into their eye
She did her best and gave it all
She now holds herself and stands tall

Medhavi
23-05-17

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