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Tumse juda ho kar, Jo bhi ghazal maine suni,  Un sa ek antra maine tumhare liye likha,  Jis bhi raaste se main guzri,  Maine tumhara naam apne zehen mein likha, Jis bhi mandir dargah mein maine dua maangi, Toh us har dua mein tumhara achcha hi likha, Jis bhi rang ko maine chuna har din, Tumhari Nazar se maine har baar khud ko dekha,  Tumse nafrat karun, yeh baat bahut baar sochi, Par tumse mohabbat itni thi ki dil ke aage dimaag hazaaron karodon baar haara,  Toh maine zindagi tumhare naam kar di, Aur har saans ko bhi tumhare naam kiya.  Medhavi  30/04/24

'You left me on read' Seconds after texting you the last goodbye, I was holding my phone and waiting for your response, My hands were shaking, my heart was pounding, I saw you were online and then offline without a word, I held my phone for hours, even while working, Because I didn't want to miss even a message that might send and then 'delete for everyone'.  I remember holding my phone while I passed out,  And waking up with every vibration and sound,  Pinning your chat on top and  looking at my phone day & night, Getting drunk and senseless but only feeling my hand, Because it held the phone,  Taking a bath and still looking at our chat, But, no, you didn't care to respond.  You left me on "read" - Part 1 -  * You left me on read *  Another day, same longing,  For that customized notification sound, For those stickers that expressed how you felt. Still the same question in my mind, How are you able to do this ? Is moving on from me so convenient?

Depression is not a 'phase' !  The same story on loop, Lonely days, lonelier nights,  Sleeping with four cushions, And re-thinking what's right... Looking at old pictures, And smiling alone,  Eating dark chocolate, And looking at my unlocked phone... No calls, no messages, no notifications too,  I couldn't move on, how could you?  In such nights, I hope for an unexpected call,  If not from you, then from a friend... Why is everyone busy, why has everyone changed,  Why does everyone want to meet on occasions and reunions,  Why have I lost my friends in this crowd of millions... This night is long just like every other night,  And I can't sleep or think positive like things are alright,  Because they aren't and nobody can see,  All they see is my smiling face,  It's so easy to hide but sorry I can't let it be,  I have to let it out and I have to face,  I know its hard but it's harder to be fake... I'm living with it what is termed as 'depressio

Tum Sach thhe ya jhooth thhe, Yeh aksar khud se poochti hun main, Tasveerein haath mein hoti Hain lekin,  Phir bhi Shaq sa karti hun main, Jo itna gehra tha kabhi,  Itna khokhla kab ho gaya, Jo itna apna tha kabhi, Iss kadar ajnabee kab ho gaya... Yeh sawaal be-jawaab hain, Aur uljhanein ab bhi be-hisaab hain, Koi dil toddne ko dil lagaata kyun hai, Koi dur jaane ko paas aata kyun hai, Koi sehra mein barsaat sa hai kyun, Is toote rishte mein yeh gaanth hai kyun, Kyun khwaabon mein tum aate ho ab bhi, Sab chhal tha, phir kyun rulaate ho ab bhi... Tumhe lautna nahin yeh jaanti hun main, Phir kyun bahaane bana tumhare peeche bhaagti hun main, Aur har raat yahi sochti hun main,  Tum Sach thhe ya jhooth thhe,  Tasveerein haath mein hoti Hain, Phir bhi Shaq sa karti hun main... Medhavi 05.04.17

Aaj tumhari tasveer daraaj mein paddi mili,  Ajeeb laga thoda, kyunki tum mujhe ajnabee se lage, Hamari pehli aur aakhiri mulaaqaat beeti sadi si lagi,  Tumhara chehra zaroor nazar mein dhundhlaaya zara, Ashq lekin ek bhi na meri aankhon ko chhoo saka, Woh har lamha jo tumko bhulaane mein guzaara, Uska ek ehsaas yaad karne se bhi na yaad aaya, Tasveer maine waapas daraaj mein nahin rakhi,  'Geet' ko yaad kar ke, jala kar flush kar di,  Aur khud ko dekh aayeene mein main muskaayi,  Yeh dekh kar, ki main mujhmein phir laut aayi.  - Medhavi 01/04/24