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Is this Depression ?  There are times, When you scream and there's no noise, When you cry and there are no tears, When you are sleepless in thoughts, yet asleep in real, When your mirror questions you and nothing answers, When each step feels like a milestone, And each breath feels like a lifetime... When you're not lazy but just tired, Not physically but emotionally, Drained and drenched with your own dark thoughts, Locked and blocked in your mind's own darker room, When you see good things happening around, But can't feel anything, When even the best weather doesn't create a difference, And every morning there's a heavy feeling... A drowning heart and dying spirit, But then the thought that this shall pass,  As it is said, as the last time it was, This is a new day, let's try again, Let's live, let's smile, at least pretend... The sun still shines,  The stars still glitter,  The winds still blow,  And seasons change,  But what is it that has bound

Is it okay if I tell you... That I miss you the moment you go out of my sight,  That I think about you until the end of every night,  That I begin my day with a smile because I have you in my life,  That I choose the color of my clothes keeping you in my mind... Is it okay if I tell you... That I still look at our pictures and wonder how we made it so far,  That I still crave for your presence and the love that you shower,  That I smell my clothes after you go coz they smell of you,  That I still drink water from the glass that you used last time,  That I still listen to songs that remind me of you,  That I calm myself down when I can't live without you that it's all gonna be fine... Is it okay if I tell you... That even thinking of my life without you breaks me from within,  That the thought of not seeing you again brings a full stop to my being,  That I pray for you every single time when I pray,  That I long for more of you every single day... Is it okay if I tell you... Tha

He wanted to still share the paradise.  The paradise she built for them both.  But the difference was her absence. The difference was her replacement. He wanted to still share the same friends. Friends, she built throughout her life. Friends, he met through her and felt alive. He wanted to pretend all's well. He wanted to envelope reality. She was living a nightmare. She wanted to still face it  and build her identity. He continued his games and smiled at her. Sarcasm was it ? some mirage or myth. She smiled back and welcomed his hopes. She got up again and lived like never before. Medhavi

He replaced her like she never existed.  She passed him like he was a stranger.  He knew all about her and so did she.  He couldn't face her, but she wanted to see. How is he able to bear all the pain. Doesn't he miss her and want her back again.  But she just wanted to see and not change her ways. She was ready to let go and cry for nights and days. He wasn't worth her. She was worth eternities. But yes she thinks of him, like her biggest mistake.  Medhavi

You just didn't love me enough  Seven years ago when we met,  I didn't know, neither you did,  That our paths will cross again,  And you will fall for someone like me... Someone as broken as I was then,  Tired of love, tired of being unloved.  And we met again when things were worse,  I had put my heart in jeopardy for someone else,  And was shattered but you still held me.  5 years of your patience,  5 years of your love,  But today I want to say that,  You didn't love me enough.  You said you find it hard to express,  And I waited for that one day when you would, You said you'd fight the world for me, And I waited for that one day when you would... You gave up too late,  Or you gave up too early,  I wasn't prepared,  We weren't done,  But between us there were always your demons, And you and your demons never believed in miracles.  Your practicality killed my dream - lit love,  Your pragmatism killed all my goals for us,  It was always black and white for you,

Sukoon ho tum,  Mera ghar ho tum,  Tumhe dekh kar bas yun hi,  Aankhein nam ho jaati hain,  Ab bhi tasveerein dekh kar tumhari,  Meri aankhein muskuraati hain... Meri subha, meri shaamein,  Mere din, meri raatein,  Mere khwaab, meri neendein,  Mere kamre ki choti choti cheezein,  Sab tumhare khayaalon ko dohraati hain,  Tumse bematlab bewajah har din thodi aur mohabbat ho jaati hai... Tum dur ho kar itne,  Kaise mere dil ko chu jaate ho,  Kaise mujh mein doob kar,  Mujhe har din apna deewana banaate ho,  Tumhe paane ka hausala har din badhta jaata hai,  Ek hi khwaab kayi baar mera zehen mujhko dikhaata hai... Tum mujh mein kuch is tarah ho,  Ki main khud ki talaash mein hun aajkal,  Jo dekhti thi, padhti thi,  Kuch waise ishq mein main hun aajkal... Tumhara mausam meri saanson mein utarta hai aadat ki tarah,  Aur tumhara wajood mere naam se judta hai ibaadat ki tarah... Har din tumse puchte nahin thakti, ki mujhe chorr to nahin doge,  Par tumhara Siva ab to khud par bhi nazar nahin tik

[14/2/2022, 11:48 pm] Dr. Medhavi: Bambai,  Kehte hain ki bambai sapnon ki nagri hai,  Par mere liye toh hamesha Mera sukoon ghar hai,  Pichle hafte main phir gaya tha Bambai, apne ghar, apne nagar,  Itni baar 'apna' keh raha hun,  Kyunki dooriyaan hi apnon ki ehmiyat ko samjhaati hain,  Aur yeh ehsaas dilaati hain ki waqt kisi ke haath mein nahin hota... [14/2/2022, 11:51 pm] Dr. Medhavi: Bambai ki choti choti baatein yaad aati hain,  Jaise aadhi raat ko local train mein Safar karna,  Marine drive par yun hi chalte huye hawa ko mehsoos karna, Samandar ki khushboo, Aur dhundhlaati huyi lehron ki aawaaz,  Auto walon se kisse baantna aur, Apne sheher mein mehfooz hone ka ehsaas... [14/2/2022, 11:58 pm] Dr. Medhavi: Kayi baar toh bambai ke paani se baal dhona yaad aata hai,  Toh kabhi tapri ki cutting chai,  Baba falooda ya prithvi ke paraanthe,  Har jagah Dil ka ek chota sa tukda basta hai,  Bambai chorrte waqt bhi yahi sawaal tha,  Aur ab bhi hai, ki kyun chorrne padde yeh jaane

Thokaron ki aadat mere har kann ko aisi paddi,  Ki andhere se ab mujhe darr nahin lagta... Itna kuch haar chuki is ek zindagi mein,  Ki kuch khone se ab mujhe darr nahin lagta... Haan jab kabhi koi muskura deta hai bewajah,  Ya kar deta hai kuch mere liye, Kabhi gulaab,  toh kabhi koi tohfa le aaye bewajah,  Ya yun hi gale se laga le kabhi,  Toh zara sehem jaati hun main  ek muskurahat ke peeche, Dil kahin dafn kar leta hai khud ko  pichle dhokon ke neeche... Ki ab Karo baat dur se,  Kareeb na aao hamare,  Toote tukde hamare, Kahin tumko hi chubh na jaayein   Medhavi  14/10/23

Tumhe likhte likhte dard ki syaahi mein doob gaye hain lafz mere,  Ab kuch bhi pehnu, yeh dard ke dhabbe mere kapdon par padd hi jaate hain.  - Medhavi🤞 Yeh samajhne mein kaafi waqt lag gaya, Ki tumhe mujh se apni marzi se judde rehne ke ehsaas ki yaad aati hai... meri nahin.  - Medhavi🤞

There are different kinds of people in our lives.  Every other person serves a purpose.  The first step towards attaining peace is to remove those people from your life who don't serve a purpose in your life.  The second step is to classify and assign labels to the people who exist in your life. The labels can be as per you and your relationship with them. Some are needed in your hard times, some need you in their hard times. Some always speak highly of you before others but tell you when you're wrong in private. While some pretend to be your well wishers and don't leave a single chance to let you down. So, it's totally your call to understand and decide which amongst them are important for you and who you give power to in order to affect you, your mental health and your life.  The third step is to always make sure that you surround yourself with people who are positive, if not towards you then at least towards life. Because such people teach you the best lessons. Remem

Hum toote kayi dafa tere intezar mein, Dil toh tune pehle hi tod diya tha,  Par hausalon ko tune baar baar toda Hum bilkre kayi dafa tere pyar mein,  Sath dene ka vaada toh tune kabka tod diya tha, Par yeh hath pakad tune baar baar chodda Kabhi tera mann badalne ka,  Toh kabhi sahi waqt aane ka,  Kabhi tere waqt nikalne ka,  Kabhi tere waalpas aane ka,  Humne bahut intezar kiya Ab nahin hota intezar, Na tere lautne ka,  Na chodd jane ka,  Ab sirf intezar hai mujhko,  Khud ko wapas paane ka.