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The beauty was within her, all she had to do was look eye to eye, in the mirror, of her deep soul. She was meant to be free, she was meant to be all on herself, but she was reserved and grounded to her limits. She wanted to fly, she wanted to hold on to herself as well, but her wings were trapped in the crumbled web of fears. She had to let go, she had to know her inner strengths, but she was halted by the incompatible forces of anxieties. She woke up one morning, smiled and held the broken pieces of her courage. She walked out of home and left her fear-influenced self behind. She was free, she could actually breath in her soul, it was the first real day of her life, because she discovered her own self. -Medhavi 29.12.14

'Everything will be fine' were his first words to me, after this long whatsapp chat that we had, where only I was going on and on and his replies were just 'Okays' and 'Thens'. I had never seen him and he had just seen me in pictures, we had never met, but still I had that faith in him that he had the solution to my problems. He was a common friend, who shared an uncommon relationship with me, we had never heard each other's voices and yes, we had never met. This chat that began one day couldn't end for seven long days, every single minute, we were connected. I still remember, I had a DP, but he didn't even have one at any social network. I had never seen him. We started talking about my problems, but eventually went to an unintended path, where we started walking together.. walking together on the path that was just so uncertain and dreamy. We just chatted for those seven days after which our relationship completely changed. At 4

Loving you wasn't a choice, it just occured to me. I wanted to look beyond the reality, I wanted to accept the flaws, but I just closed my eyes. I just covered my eyes with the translucent layer of your love that just made me see the partial truths in life. I fell in love with you and it couldn't be helped. There were times when I knew that you were not meant for me, there were times when I wanted to just look through the paused blurs between the translucent layers, but I just looked inside myself n found peace and happiness, so just preferred to love and get loved by you. There were times when you hurt me, physically and mentally, but I didn't give up. I made a choice to try till the end and I did. I knew that the end was near, I knew that we had to part ways, but I believed that it will happen at the right time, in the right way. How could I forget that it was me who covered my eyes, you could see it all. One day you just woke up and made up your mind,

Peecha karna tera meri aadat hai kya Ya shayad meri fitrat aisi ban gayi Khwaab mein haqeeqat mein bhi Tera hi peecha karti hun main Dhundhti hun tujhe laakhon chehron mein Dekhti hun tujhe chaaron pehron mein Apne aas paas.. yun hi bin baat Muskuraati hun yun hi khud mein Tu nahin hai aaj Tu na hoga kal Tu sach hai aaj Tu jhooth tha kal Yeh jaan gayi Tujhe pehchaan gayi Phir bhi na jaane kyun Mohabbat karun tujhse hi Phir bhi na jaane kyun Ardaas karun teri hi Tu na tha kabhi Mere naam se bandha Tu na tha kabhi Meri taqdeer se judda Phir bhi na jaane kyun Tujhe hi dhoondhun main Phir bhi na jaane kyun Tujhe hi chaahun main Tu sahi nahin galat hi hai Phir bhi kyun tera aitbaar karun Baar baar wahi kasoor karun Phir se tujhse hi main pyaar karun Kaise khud se tujhe dooor karun

Baddi gustakh mohabbat hai yeh, Din din badhti hi jaave, Bulaawa iska har chalti saans pe aave, Bhul jaawan tujhe gar tu khwaab vich na aaye, Bhul jaawan tujhe gar tu saaya ban na peeche aave, Takna chorr dein tujhe gar tu nazar de saamne se hatt jaaye, Mangnaa chor dein tujhe gar tu rab vich nazar na aave, Dil todd gaya arson pehle tu bin aahat kiye, Bas ek gal dassa assi kidhar kam reh gaye, Tainu mudd ke na dekha ek vaari bhi, Assi lutaate rahe apni khushi saari hi, Giley rakhaan bhi toh kaise tujhse, Gustaakh mohabbat badhti hi jaave, Har din rokun khud ko main, Par bas tere naam har saans hoti hi jaave..

वो हमसफ़र था अगर, तो हाथ क्यूँ छूट गये? मैखाने जो दरमियाँ थे वफ़ा के, वो ज़र्रों से टकरा टूट क्यूँ गये? वो मोहब्बत का खुदा था जो हमारे लिए, वो इबादत का ठिकाना था जो हमारे लिए, वो गैरों की तरह मूह क्यूँ मोड़ गया? एक ख्वाब की तरह यह दिल तोड़ क्यूँ गया? शायराना थे अंदाज़ हमारे पहले भी, पर अब यह गज़लें क्यूँ आँह भरती हैं, खुदा को मानते थे हम पहले भी, पर अब सरहदें भी क्यूँ उसकी राह तकती हैं? वो हमसफ़र था अगर, तो क्यूँ थाम लिया उसने कोई और साथी? हमारी ज़िंदगी में तो कुछ ना रहा बाकी, यकीन करें भी तो कैसे अब मोहब्बत पर, कि अब तो ख़ौफ़ सा है खुद से की ना हों जायें जज़्बाती I Medhavi 06.12.14

बड़ी नाज़ुक सी मंज़िल थी, बड़ा सांकरा सा रास्ता था, बड़ी बुझी सी गलियाँ थी, बड़ा अधूरा सा किस्सा था, वो शभ-ए-इंतेज़ार की थी, वो सबब-ए-जुदाई था, रात बड़ी लंबी थी वो, मौसम-ए-रुसवाई सा था, वो लौटा नहीं कभी, हमने राह तकि बहुत थी, उसके लिए अफ़साना था जो, हमारे लिए मोहब्बत थी. Medhavi 06.12.14

मैं फ़ासले मिटा रही थी, वो रंजिशें बढ़ा रहा था, मैं दरमियाँ ला रही थी बातें, वो ख़त्म कर रहा था मुलाक़ातें, मैं याद दिला रही तही गुज़रे अफ़साने, वो बना रहा था दूर जाने के बहाने, फिर दिल को समझाना पड़ा हमको ही की कसूर अपना था, धूप में छाँव का ख्वाब देख रही थी, सेहरा में बहार को आस दे रही थी, कदम साथ ना तहे जिसके उससे हमसफ़र कह रही थी, जिसके लिए मैं कुछ ना तही उससी से मोहब्बत कर रही थी,  मेधावी 5.12.14